the only limit is my soul

Ngiamy Has Shifted!

2008-12-20T07:44:00.000-08:00

Moving house!

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www.ilurveme.wordpress.com

Ngiamy's new blog!

Ciao!

tv addict

2008-10-29T04:35:00.000-07:00

super uber tv addict now...
i regret and take back my words that 岁月风云 is a lousy showwww
its freaking exciting and nice!!!

anyway wanted to say this line in the show is sooo damn apt and true...

对敌人最好的报负就是帮助他让他永远亏欠你

i like.

while surfing...

2008-10-19T03:33:00.000-07:00

came across this line as i was web-browsing...

"The six most important words: I admit I made a mistake. The five most important words: You did a good job. The four most important words: What is YOUR opinion? The three most important words: If you please. The two most important words: Thank You. The one most important word: We. The least important word: I." - Author Unknown

How apt!

One impt lesson for a sleepy rainy sundayyyyy, blow wind blowwww

HCMC 20-22 September

2008-09-24T08:15:00.001-07:00

Many First...

First time sitting on the plane alone.
First time checking in on my own.
First time sleeping in the hotel in a foreign land alone.

Alrightyyy pictures time!

610am, home to changi airport, thanks for the ride in the comfy papa ngiam's car!

Empty saigon flight. in flight entertainment is DA best, reminds me of the painful jetstar flight to bkk, heh, im a spoilt brat.

wah lau eh, there are no driving lanes in HCMC, the cars are everywhere, and they go in all directions and even against red traffic light, the motorcycles are like moving on the roads alike pedestrians, all over the place. i have been taught that the way to cross the road is to do it on a constant speed so that they can siam you properly. i almost died twice in hcmc when the motor brush past me. scary!

First meal in saigon, apparantly, bill clinton came by this stall just for their famous beef noodles in the past. but he came once, and the whole store was his pictures, as if he came many times. hahah

belly belly the "gao" soursop drink, up to a point, my weak lungs cannot suck finish the drink. im serious lor!

AH-ha! my top favourite in this store, fried rice rolls with prawns, is damn nice esp when the whole prawn can be eaten, shioknesssss. bo bian, im a sucker for fried stuff.

the famous Ben thanh market. sorry ar the weather was too freaking hot for me to take a picture of the building. its alike chinatown wet market i guess, they have everything inside, people sit by the stores to take their meals, quite a nice culture i feel. super freestyle.

are you thinking what i was thinking then? remember how supermarkets and OG shopping centre will always have aunty and ah beng sales man selling fruits peeler, juice market, steamer etc. i found the saigon version here! just beside the entrance of the market.

if i ever step into this shop to buy things, i think i will faint and die, buried under the many beads and pearls in the shop, super giddy can!

and of course, sua ku me had to sit down and join the locals for a taste of their famous local dessert. dunno whats the name, but its like their version of chendol to me, just that its suppose to have like 10 kind of food items inside, red bean, ginko nuts, and something that look like bee hoon to me, too sweet for my liking.

high classs shopping, dont have money go us for marc jacobs, just go to hcmc.

one my favourite stops admist our tight schedule in saigon. the post office. super ancient looking building, the picture here cannnot justify how nice it looks in reality. i was awwww over by the very look of this building, lets take a look inside:

people buying stamps and sending parcel.

my super duper favourite item of alll countries i visit. TELEPHONE BOOTHS!!!!

i wish i could visit the ang mo countries one soon! see superman inside. or issit some other man -_-''

tell you, the phone booth has aircon inside, i just had to go in and take a pic and escape for the hot like hell weather.

A trip to our vietnam office!

Had dinner here, a visit i recommend if you visit saigon soon.

this is actually a tea for you to waste your taste buds i think, taste like tea but has a slight mint taste.

As my office peeps has been calling me, i became a pork convert/addict/ pervert while i was there. but i tell u, i have such "high" stds for food right, this grilled pork is to die for. the smell of the charcoal only taste good enough. anyway it has nothing to do with the pork, its the grilled. next time buy vietnam charcoal for bbq =) i had 2 plates of it, too good to miss!

Me no eat snail, snail not nice.

Prawn and pork fried pancake, to satisfy my fried food craving!

this is not so nice, sweet potato and something else pancake. eat already face as oily as pancake.

Day 2 - 21 Sept

Conference room of Sofitel Hotel. Where i had my first overseas presentation, and my very good translator colleague lan khan. very nice lady, had alot to talk to her. ok i know what you are thinking, i have alot to talk to anyone right? kns!

a must visit for all S*B-ians. fanny ice cream! money worth guarantee.

My baileys icecream, but no baileys taste. Good enough to counter-attack the hot weather thou.

OKays! my Hotel room.

i love the bed, i can roll over twice! dunno why but i just love to sleep on hotel bed.

free high speed internet access

This is how messy my room became after one whole day of conference and exhibition.

回家咯！

6-ish am, bright and busy liao.

and so i couldnt sleep and end up watching stephen chow “唐伯虎点秋香“

before i leave the hotel, one final shot of the scary hotel toilet with alot of mirror everywhere, even infront of the toilet bowl, and my face! face not scary hor!

Goodbye Saigon!!!!

CIndys thinking...

2008-09-06T21:03:00.000-07:00

Taken in 06, i must have been thinking for a long long time till nowwww.

life can be happiee...

even happie as an abnn..

Ahhh, i just need to remind myself, life is gooood!
Too emo for my own good!

Gambatte!

hello! got people read one or not arh???

2008-07-04T11:43:00.000-07:00

ok thats lame,

anyway im here to blog about a new theory that i came up with about love after a long long long dwarfs dialogue session.

For many girls, r/s comes in different forms, one goes like this:

Its like riding a bicycle, your guy will ride the bicycle really hard at the start, you ll feel warm and happie. and because you are contented. he stops pedaling.. the bicycles starts to go straight for a while and then it starts to wobble. Just before when you are about to fall, you realise someone is pedaling hard again. and before you know it i will have to repeat this para. you can imagine how your heart beats with this.

Dont correct me if im wrong, for if you know me well enough you would know i have nv been in any r/s. i have only learnt to love myself, hiaks.

Food for thought, after my creativity class to try to explain complicated things easily to my friends.

Will be back to blog about my farewell from last deployment.

ciaos, soooo tireeeed =(

im feeeling....

2008-06-23T07:32:00.000-07:00

tired now.

im lazy to even explain where the tireness is coming from.

just weary i guess

well for those whom may have heard, my grandma is fine, looking much better now.

i guess death never felt soo close before when we almost lost her a week ago. till now, i vividly remember how i could hardly breathe as i made my way to the hospital from home, the voice of my teary dad. my soaked-up tee while trying to keep her awake.

im just glad all is good now.

just want to say thank you to some of you for the text sms and stuff. it was as good as having you guys around, esp my 2 best friends hys and maine. thank youu. for checking on me every other day, as if you guys were with me through out. kept me sane at least for a while. these things are really those that matters to me the most at the end of the day.

that aside, im heading into countdown mode for my current attachment. im soo sure im going to miss the girls at my dept and my father-ly boss. the rapport and support will be my memories to keep. the craziness we have been through working together marks the best days in here.

alrights, that shall be all, i will be back soon. CATCH ME!

A question for you..

2008-05-10T00:47:00.000-07:00

Would you rather be...

a) A rich Mistress or,
b) A poor Wife.

If you are like me, to always like to challenge assumptions, i m pleased tell you to consider the following,

1) In both case, the men will love the woman alot, so in terms of happiness coming from love it is the same, of being in a relationship, they are equally happy.

2) technically, what the question is asking is whether you will sacrifice being in the dark, being the one to back down when the real wife is here, being the one to always being kept in the closet (dont equate this to being unloved) just because you need to have heaps of riches to spend for the rest of life,

think about it ;)

FYI, I haven had anyone who has able to answer straight away

ps: this is what happens when you dun get to use much brains at work, you think about such tricky questions.

i almost forgot i have a blog.

2008-05-04T07:13:00.000-07:00

Just because im still as lazy as i always have been, i will let pictures do the talking for my days in current attachement for the past 2 mths...

went on flyer... ( dun laugh! i know its damn freaking long but i just got the pictures)

thats yours truly... who is not afraid of heights ;)

and thats my happie CM people,

and lastly, the whole bunch of us, doing classfoto

next, we went through weeks of music and video making, the whole department became a mini mediacorp, as we prepare for workplan conference...

thats us, early in the morning at 9am, check out my eyes so damn small although technically it is not big to begin with

my secret attempt to make eyes look bigger

a happie dinner to reward ourselves after the conference. heh.

Cute lil boy, my colleague's sweet little boy

he is soooo cute, buay ta han...

my helpful buddy at work,

the people whom makes the lil corner on 11 floor a happy place.

in the words of winnie, im a happy person.

date me out my dears, im about to rot into a fossil.

haiii

2008-03-23T08:33:00.000-07:00

不要把人家对你的关心和担心当成是多余的

because you have no idea how much that hurts.

and i have no reasons to hate courses mannn

2008-03-22T10:48:00.000-07:00

this week is really worth waiting for mannn. been a blast.

it was only 2 days of work and i officially declare monday = thursday and tuesday = friday just to prepare myself for the great week to come. how prepared i was man.

spent 2 days at the same old tourism academy.. the only thing i ll bring to my grave with me is the breakfast for the 2 days.. superbly gooooodnesss... (photos courtesy of KPK's best fren)

and of course we wont pay enough attention in class but were busy laughing at all the stupidest thing and drawing the ugliest drawing... and i have started developing my very own adaption of kevin's ang mo accent over the past few days.. here are my best frens and i in class, having highest attention span only during the breaks.

someone said: " eh i want to chit chat with my friends during break one lei" :)

and the tiring part of the course.. to do a project on re-positioning some attractions at Sentosa.. hence , we were at...

doing this... all in the aid of showing that we really understand what is brand positioning and marketing mix :)

and of course, there is no such thing as missing out on DA vivocity after a day's course at sentosa.. so off we were for a gooood dinner which was for a me an ugly green patch of vegetable sauce on a pan-fried fish. so very the not nice man. So evil horns came up and i asked for ice-cream.. AND I GOT IT!!!

And to further prove my point about how much we love vivocity... tada we were there again the next day after class... river island cafe.. did i get it wrong again??

finally a almost full changi MT dinner... yippie...

and off we went for a blasting KTV session.. just the right way to end the 2 day course..

TOP ONE AT BUGIS = COOL SHIAT!!!!

check out the smoke machine... machiam a ge-tai, need i say more???

all of us in a group foto...

our changi babies for the night...

and of course we had the pleasure of "ayumi" singing for us for the night.. check that diva aura out!!!!

doing us a slow and sentimental song...

check our her very high and entertained fans...

and of course we were cut off from our singing the moment the clock strikes 12. more accurate than alarm clock lor.. kns.

we ended the night with sweet desserts from ah chews... nice!

lastly, a foto of my brother who was there till the end of it with me at 130am..

end.

ps: im ready for depression mode on monday.

2008-03-05T06:40:00.000-08:00

我好像已经很久很久没有心情有那么差了，三天下来也没说上几句话。

我再也不是那个变色龙了，“入水能游出水能跳“

我过惯了的身活，

是那种习惯只有自己能听得到自己在说话
是那种已经不去在乎别人这么看我
是那种不会去管别人要的是什么
是那种无论你再努力，也不是每一件事你都可以去改变

我只想只想去好好对待我身边很爱很爱的人

我的人生真的只要有他们就够了。

真的够了:)

huat ah!!!!!!

2008-02-10T05:38:00.000-08:00

gong xi ah gong xi~ fa ah fa da cai!!!!!

CNY has been good. not that boring. at least only half as boring as what i thought it would be.

at least people can remember more vividly that im no longer schooling and where im working. (thanks to the lastest family wedding we went) which is an amazing feat because usually the only thing that sticks in their mind is that im still in uni year one every year.

and nope. the thriving economy hasnt quite shown in my ang pow collection. i even had shrinking ones.. boooohoooo. must be all my bitching that i do to people behind them lars. see.. i dun only suffer during xmas where i dun receive additional gifts, even during cny also like that. kns.

at least this year i did something different for a change. i met up with friends on chu er.

::watch dvds :: eat pizza & chips (and drink mineral water) :: ate (terrible) dinner :: la kopi ::

and i spent lovely chu san bai-nian-ing with some of the most important people in my life!! im still laughing over those stupid comments made at hys place... soooo funnie. hys we love u!!!! just that we cannot control even during cny. bleahz.

I had dwarfs and 3 snow whites at my place for dnr. had a freaking good time laughing over nothing.

joke of the day, i laugh so badly i almost choke.

sheila to a very quiet victor (as usual) : victor, 这边不是 library hor.

HAHAHHAHAHAHAHAH. even as im typing, im still laughing.

now, you know why i say most of my friends are just like me. when we get to reincarnate one day, we ll all be cockroaches.

nuff said. cont to breathe in the hell week to come.

my last full week before rotation starts again.

*mixed feelings*

Surprise Surprise.

2008-01-16T05:52:00.000-08:00

what a great way to end a good day at work, saw this collage at kuang's blog.. its ssssooooooooo sweet. i hope we really get to go cruise tgt. now who says cruise sucks.. not when i am going with them!!!!

count down to FLY -DAY!!!!

last few moments of 07... to first moments of 08

2008-01-01T02:34:00.000-08:00

i cant remember how i spend 06-07 countdown despite thinking about it the whole day... was i out with someone???

i spent my 31-12-07 doing this....:

because it was lovely half-day (screams hooray!!!!) i spent the afternoon lazing around with HPL over lunch and tea... now tell me who doesnt love half-days rite... the day was spend strolling ard their favourite stores.. and miss J buying her loot. as usual we end up seh-ing at a coffee place...

sehing at a coffee club..

laters at night.. i met up with 3/7 dwarfs and snow white( hahahahahah) for a quiet countdown at AMK HUB (irks). dnr was at "dian xiao er" , my first time but.. the food is damn good by my own standards. then it was heading down to BISHAN park.. for a drink at a small beer house..infested with mosquitoes and small "bengs"... sorry no pictures because wimpy peifang refused to take pictures in case we see unwanted things in the pictures at the park.. we spoke about everything and nothing.. and we manage to "dong" until the movie at 1245am 01-01-08... which i officially declare the most "hor-lee-gee-ble" movie for the century and more centuries to come

top reasons why normal girls should nv watch this show.. or sorry i mean consider to even watch this show...

1. there is no differentiation between aliens and predators... and i think asked han about 10 over times " tis one is alien or predators arh" and to find that at the 10th time she has fallen asleep.

2. the predator (if i have identifed correctly) muliplied themselves like bacteria and they appear everywhere, meaning there are on for about almost every min of the show and the most importantly you keep your eyes close for about half the show.. *punch myself on my heart "dui"*

3. the way predator/aliens/both kill were gruesome. a typical witness would describe the victim as "she lost her stomach". can faint lor... think kuay chap in the most horrendous version.

4. the story has no plot and has many different characters... and in the end the whole story came tgt when they all met in a provision store... *kua~ kua~*

5. half an hour of the show was about the predator walking in the drain finding dunno what and shooting lazy which i conveniently stole some sleep. another half an hour was on the battle between predator and alien which i became giddy.

6. no hunks, no babes only forest and predators...

7. for your info, this is alien and predator 2.... i wonder who gave the brilliant idea of a sequel.

i can go on forever but i think i have made my point pretty clear. heee.. but anything that came out good of the movie was the wonderful company i have had. nothing beats spending the first few moments of the new year with the people that i have grown so close and so comfortable with, and thinking about my loved ones and people that have made 07 a really good year.

and i had a really good news that came to me moments b4 08.. which has made me really happie and im still smiling now.. i ll keep it a secret for now till its ok to say it here. dun worry it has nothing to do with me at all.. just that i am truly happie for this dear friend of mine. and i was first to know.. *say yay!!!!* like she say she knew i ll be truly happie for her. she cant be more right. hope it brings positive influence over me thou. heee.

ok time for reflections (boring....):

well, 07 has been a really really fast year for me... months ago i slogged myself hard at school, keeping my best efforts for that very expensive piece of paper which im very proud of now. looking back, i cant keep track of every single details of school and i might even forget certain important things.. but it jus plain sweet memories i have to keep with me for the rest of my life.. to share with people who are interested that is. this journey through school couldnt have been better than it already is.

hall.. friends... classmates... everything... back at the end of mind even if i become senile.

did 2 grad trips and boy! it was awesome.. travelling with people i lub most and brought us closer tgt.. what could be better right... i climbed my great wall (half way thou), did my disney, ate to my hearts content, shop till i dropped and laugh all i ever could in those 2 incredible weeks. and my very very very valuable bdae gift this year.. a logbook of our travel in china.. thank dearss....

and of cuz got myself employed eventually, travelled around singapore in the most unimaginable way ever... met a group of wonderful trainees that evolved to be friends first and colleagues second. some of those dearest to me are those i nv would have imagine us to have clicked and spend so much time tgt.. even when i am away from them most of the time. acknowledge and appreciate the difference amongst us as i learn about things i probably nv come to experience in my life. and i look fwd to more goofing time man when feb comes.

that pretty much sums up 07 or rather cos im tired alr and i wanna blog-hop.

i only hope for 08 to be even better than 07.. much much more eventful and happening than 07. and to all the things i have to get it done in 08.. i ll do it better than i ever could and the desire to want to make things right will go on...

happy new year everyone. -hugs-

oh no...

2007-12-14T19:20:00.000-08:00

roomie is on her way, half way through the globe heading to the US of A.

Sheila is probably munching on europe fats now.

Eileen is gg to hug some australia polar bears in a few days time.

Shelia is gg to kaip-pun-kaip (thailand) in a weeks time.

SO what the hell do i do with my leave coming to an end this week?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?

welcome back to earth man.

ps: dun go to this club called thumper at goodwood park.. its boring dao~~~~

jus a normal sunday...

2007-12-02T01:48:00.000-08:00

finally.. i step out to take my evening jog/walk/crawl.

thats just the normal way i spend my lazy sunday... sleep wake up lunch sleep in agn.

saw this line as i cleared my junk mails...

*** if you want the rainbow.. you have to put up with the rain first***

i felt this line in me, all over me.

spent the saturday... WORKING IN THE MORNING and thereafter met meiyan for lunch and nothing else.. but i like the way it is.. jus plan to meet... with no where to go in mind.. settling for whatever comes to mind. and because i was smart enuff to know this gal have to study jap i brought my book along to read it at starbucks and watch the afternoon go away.

and because she has to write i have to made do with talking to the top of her head and looking like a kuku -_-". but the afternoon was so comfortable with the nice cuppa coffee.. jus look kuku lor.. we haven been out many times but each time it was time well spent.. probably some frenship are meant to be.. simple and with no expectation...

and then I MET MY DEAR HANHAN AND LALA TAN... of cuz it was to more silly jokes and laughter... thats the way dwwarfs are meant to be... always busking in one anothers company :)

and of cos.. a happy happy bdae to angie baby, thou one day late for "3secs of fame"

and of cuz.. we will be better than ever... gg to table 108 even when our teeth have all fallen off

to showcase some pple i have been missing dearly...

i wish we could be in the plane to hk tmr.

wishing JC days will has never ended.. take out the PE lessons thou.

and definitely....

ru ru and eileen too ...ruru u so lucky bump into me last night.. hahaha.hugs. lets hope no more cancelled outings to come.

and of cuz....

shall we go party after dnd?!?!??! cant wait! i wanna be geedee not drunk somemore!

pardon the re-used pics. the only surviving comp at home jus recovered from a CPR session

jus in case you dunno i celebrated my first halloween this year... a final 2 pics for you to laugh at me.. (whats new)

definition of old school

2007-11-25T07:02:00.000-08:00

even before i start with this entry.. im already laughing.

yesterday... oanne, mui and myself were out at town buying vintage gold watches.. which doreen the other gals were suppose to be also at that shop buying watches...

then of cuz after 2 hours of entertaining oanne with 10 out of 10 activity intensity scale level... we grew tired and let oanne talk to doreen on the fone about the watch stuff.. and the following conversation happened...

doreen: blah blah.. very old school one...

oanne: eh.. 什么是 old school...

doreen: (apparantly trying to explain....)

oanne: eh.. 我还是不懂 lei...

me turn ard and said: wah lau.. old school means orbit lar....

oanne: ORHHHHH....

HAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHHAHAHAH.

笑死我了!!!!!!

i cant believe my day ended like that

2007-11-14T06:07:00.000-08:00

it has got to be the weirdest, funniest and stupidest train ride ever...

as usual.. working a lil later today.. i was on the train grooving to the same old songs on my mp3.. so as the train goes.. i will start to shift and shift and shift my position to move inside the train (im a considerate rider man).

then at one corner.. my eyes caught the eyes of this other girl seating down. she looks exactly like my intern friend jac in ocbc... 99.99% 相似度 lor.. and the best thing is.. she also gave me the "i know who u are" look.. hence the conversation below took place:

me: hey... you still studying or working...
she: working lar... (me felt abit weird cos by right jac shld still be in school)
me: orh... so where u working...
she: samsung (oh oh.. jia lut liao.. something wrong)
***
She: so do you still live in yishun?
me: no.. i have never live in yishun before.. did u ever work in ocbc b4???
she: no...
me: ok.. you know what.. i think we have both got the wrong person..
she: yes yes.. but i find you very familiar...
me: yea me too..
*** both smiled and turned away***

wah piang eh. at that moment i wished i have left the office like 2 secs later.. or off my comp a lil slower... but its damn freaking funnie that we both found each other familiar and carried on a conversation... 还好 we both made a good laugh over it and waved good bye to each other as i got off at my station

well.. it did end my day on a good note over such a funnie incident..

ps: i have been coming home for dnr 3 times in a row this week.. so borrrringggg.. i have to start my dates sooooon =P

2007-11-12T07:13:00.000-08:00

"可能学会放开才叫做真正懂得去爱"

take care babies, its gonna be hard but i know you can do it.

anw, the past saturday was a blast. i nearly died laughing.

ITS THE BACK TO SCHOOL PARTY!!!!!!

Food and games we gotten very last min heh. all the rushing thru of bugis jus hours b4 the party. thats your very efficient party organisers sia. evidence below.. still got time to take pictures while preparing the place. BTH. the parteee beessss, angie and myself

and the night was filled with.. games.. grown out uniform coupled with expensive handbags.. dunno which part of the 2 match thou... haha.. food and more food on the long reunion table...

we blew bubbles (one packet $1 can last the whole table for about half an hour. amazing!), played jenga (the very zai hands aka me serene jan VS the ever trembling kev and angie), crazy heartattack as we lost our voice and kevin lost blood.. and u cant imagine how it feels to play musical chair with a bunch of kiasu.. so to repay them with kindness.. we made the winner do forfeit.. 真是笑死我了!!!!

and we yum-senged out of no where... to mark the joyous occasion and more party to come..

and of course.. i had to be a school bully...

my crazy babies..

this is the most most most hilarious part of the night... janice, the school ahlian, went to the toilet and got herself wet becos of the blardy powerful tap. which then judy aunty (aka the principal of the night) pick up the "cane" and starting scolding her for playing with water...

judy: janice fong.. i ask you to go toilet or play water.. why u so wet..

janice: i never play waterrrrrr..

judy: why you so notti...

the conversations continues and i found myself on the floor laughing so hard i couldnt stand up properly... the double J never fails to crack me up inside out upside down..

and we ended the night.. cutting a cake.. to officially pass the baton to janice nice.. to organise the next party.. tgt with ms TAN BEE HWA... HEEE

My wish is for this to go on.. and never end... class of changi 2007.. together forever.

its late.. i shld zzzzzzz. pardon the stolen pics. thanks to owner. i love u baby =)

bear hugs =)

2007-11-10T09:50:00.000-08:00

生命好像隔着很多玻璃
明明就看不到它
但它却都隔在我们之间

我也慢慢在这么多玻璃背后
慢慢看不到那所谓灿烂的笑容

可能不是没一个人都会有了解他们的人

这就是命吧

ps: the effect of replying to many chinese email at work. hee.

and so im 22 years and 12 days old.

2007-10-12T09:58:00.000-07:00

cakes and many well wishes marks the end of my 22nd bdae celebration. no big hoo-ha kinda celebration.. if need be to describe it.. it was sweet and memorable.. what matters most were the cards that i gotten *loves* and well wishes from those i put close to my heart.

my uber huge bdae card...

and the ones who have been working in factory making the above possible:
and the ones who gave me the best prezzie for this year... our beijing trip log book *beams*
and i think bdae have become the best and more useful reasons for meet up.. i got no much pictures for my bdae lei... think all of us must have been too busy talking and forgot to take pictures.. booooooooo

jus one more to post of me blowing a super duper nice cake:

im finally a year older.. a year wiser.. a year Prettier(hehe!) and a year nearer to death.... thankew all for the well wishes.. i really appreciate everything..

and my birthday marks the end of my 3 months honeymoon at changi airport for its now back to office proper... the 3 months felt like a dream.. a dream i cant recall the best parts and funniest moments because every bit of it was beauitful... an experience i ll never trade for anything.. memories i bring with me forever.. seriously i cant imagine other better ways of starting my career.. a place i meet people who have had such different liftstyles from me.. people who have taught me other values in life... i had the best partner.. travelling mates.. talk cok buddies.. kopitiam brother... we have seen each other at the highest.. drunkest( jus me lar!) funniest.. saddest.. happiest.. and im glad for the 3 months they have played a big part of my life.. big hugs.. of cuz the future is for no one to say.. but the journey to more crazy times will continue for nowwwww...

together forever. changi unite.

and the ones who will make everything right at work =)....

to end off.. the funniest picture of the week:

introducing mrs BAHAMAS (made up of grapes, strawberry, bite-ed watermelon and honey melon and plenty of chin chow)

IT TOTALLY MADE MY DAY!!!! because i was out at at beautiful sentosa for training for 2 days anw... the creator of mrs bahamas are below.. bottom left... now we know we can put creativity everywhere we go...

tata!!! pack bag and bed time!!!!

love u! and u! and U!

my early bdae cake =)

2007-09-21T07:24:00.000-07:00

went on tour agn on wed.. peranakan cum snow city tour... cut-ted my first bdae cake that day.. thanks to my tgt forever changi-ians... below are the 3 early birthday kids... *touched*

me with my own cake... gosh i look really tired in the picture..

kinda getting tired too often too quickly these days.. have been zzz average 3 plus hours a day.. and then off to work.. then to meet some frens run some errands.. and i end up zzz 3 plus hours agn.. btw darlings.. i really enjoyed the long john dinner.. had super alot of laughter.. *oh~*... it was worth waiting the whole day for it... i wish we could stay even nearer to each other.. then we can oh~ all the time... and ru ru.. hang in there... u have been dearly missed.. hope to see u on monday night!!

alrites.. time for orh orh alr... to end off.. this is my favourite foto for that day... on the left.. the one who said she cant be happy when im sad =).. to the right.. the babe who got us all the lovely cakes... thanks dears!!!

let the pictures do the talking

2007-09-18T00:41:00.000-07:00

halllo.. after clearing the cobwebs and changing my blog skin i can start blogging.. the reason for this skin.. is tooo... heee. have my archives at the side and my past posts on the side.. because i cannot find other easier ways to do mah... as always im an IT idiot.

been busy at work.. working the weird shifts timings.. and going on tours ard singapore... so this post shall be on our trip to some of the museums in singapore..

my favourite: national museum of singapore.. i certainly wish to visit it once more... one of the rooms shown below... many things to see and touch.. a way to get back to the past in very urbanised settings i must say..

this is my kind of staircase.. but i doubt i ll ever make enuff money to have one in my house...

myself listening to old school rock...

doesnt this remind you of the 60s... where we watch black and white tv.... and check out the device i have on me.. its like a mini keyboard where you can input the specific room no. you are in.. and they will start to explain whats inside the room and the special stuff.. uber cool because u can be trapped in your own universe and only listen to stuff you are interested in.. instead of having a guide beside you and you cannot selectively chose what u want to hear..

me and angie outside the studio.. waiting for the turtles to crawl out.. her monkey faces nv change de...

@ memories of old ford factory... on a rainy rainy day agn... this is a place where we remember and go through singapore darkest days.. and agn.. seeing what they have been through.. im kinda affected and sadden.. im so glad we are who we are now... singapore has certainly gone a long long way...

us jus before the tour...

and jus because im bo liao.... notice the brochure i have on my left hand...

they have certainly made work easier than it already is... *loves*

and so when we say we had enuff of smiling at the camera.. we do this!

hai fung and her mama store.. the best thing is.. the whole store is jus a piece of wall.. coolness.

and you know it when singaporeans are at the museum... sitting down filling in lucky draw forms... acting damn busy buay ta han...

when prizes are attractive enuff.. you have people fighting to put their address and contact in someone else's forms... *arghhhh*

ghost faces @ red dot museum... lucky 7th month was long over...

ta glam moment... walk too much liao mah.... sitting on museum floor..its the 3 of us agn.. janice serene and ME!

nice picture to end the day... us with my service center sup.. nas... and nas is beside a darlie gal...

boooo this last roster marks the end of my stint at the service center... its kinda sad that i have already started saying goodbye to some of my collegues here... these 3 months have been a breeze, wonderful and fun learning experience with many of the wonderful people around and defintely my fun loving bunch of mgmt traineees... our slogan: together forever as set by choon leng... i ll never forget my days at svc.. perhaps when the day to say the final goodbye comes.. i ll be here to blog agn with the pictures... till then. im so gonna enjoy my last 9 working days at svc..

BTW, i have changed my blog title.. new beginning for the road that lies ahead of me now..i know what i want and i will get it.. for i have the world behind me =)

i mus have been mad...

2007-09-11T06:50:00.000-07:00

on a beautiful off day that i have today.. i went back to my most hated haunt now.. amk hub.. BUT of cuz with two of my most beautiful darlings on earth... fei chang ying aka ah ku aka oanne and my dear neo neo... i laugh so much my hair was in a mess when i got home and they two of them did not tell me at all.. best of friend proven.

anw i want to share my very unexpected buy... art box organiser @16.90 *stabs myself*.. tada!! i stayed in the shop for half an hour all by myself.. mumbling on my own most of the time which one to buy.. seriously i think its kinda ex for an organiser since i used to have DIY organiser for myself in the past.. but i was totally drawn by their designs.. according to peifang she said this shop's stuff are from taiwan.. which i guess explains the very nice design.. for once in a uber blue moon.. i was sucha a indecisive shopper.. considering that i often describe myself as someone who shops like a man...

the cover. im sure i ll be happie to jus flip thru the book every morning =)

the inside.

the para behind which i felt very attached to after reading it...

i have always been someone who lives for the day.. i plan for the future but i do all my best to enjoy every single day of my life now... which largely explains my character... i want to be able to laugh everyday of my life...i thot i was doing the right thing.. oh well probably i still am doing the right thing.. until i read this..

" but the relentless pursuit of self-satisfaction can slip into selfishness if you are not careful"..

i wonder if the alarm for me to wake up has started ringing...

take care everyone!!!! if i haven seen u in a while, u have been dearly missed =)

emo day

2007-08-29T07:26:00.000-07:00

even if i stayed the same.. everything else will still change... some for the better.. some for the worse.. but what if worse is much more than betterrrrrrrr...

looking into the mirror.. i think im scared by what im seeing........... literally. maybe i still dunno myself after all... on who i really am.

what have i been up to!!!!

2007-08-19T09:20:00.000-07:00

Sentosa fam trip

i counted it was 2 years ago since i last been to sentosa.. and this time it was really fun.. so fun i fell sick for 5 days after that.. booooooooo

first up: cable car...

me, janice and angie.. janice was soooo scared of it.. heeeee..

stop 2: cineblast and 4d something cant remember.. but no pics.. jus the whole bunch of us under the blardy hot sun... hot dao~

stop 3: sky tower... to get the peak eye view of sentosa.. this has to be the most comfy and cool place to be... nope not giddy even when the whole thing is spinning... below.. kevin me and serene.. talking and not enjoying the view.. heee

stop 4 fav stop: LUGE AND SKYRIDE.. damn it was sooooo fun... speeding down the lanes and cutting others... best!!!!

getting ready for luge with the smelly helmets...

getting back to highlands with serene and angie on skyride.. it was 2pm in the day.. damn hot... my spec rims is thicker then my eyes lar..

fearing that their shoes will drop.. heng i came all prepared in shoes.. *smirks*

stop5: images of singapore... a place of colours and history... reliving the life of our ah ma and ah gong.. very nice place indeed... my two lil bundle of joy at work are posing for dunno what in the picture below... siao i must say

our sups with us on the chinese garden bridge...

the singaporean style of resting: sit anywhere we can find =)

stop dunno what: merlion... presenting the orchard peeps belowwwwwwww

crazy changi girls taking pics on their own...

finally... a nice peeps of my changi darlings before nightfall sets in...

its 1am on a monday morning.. i still wanna blog man.. but i got to zzzzzzzzzz.. next up.. more trips and jc outing updates...

pav gang and dwarfs!!!! i cant wait for our meet up!!!!

2007-07-07T09:42:00.000-07:00

i forgot to wear green today.. its live green day!!!

but then not much people in town wearing green.. hai.. kinda saddening that a campaign like that has to go on to remind us abt global warming...

anw.. 5 days of working life down.. one word... SHAG!!!! my week is what i can say totally different from others.. haha.. if u know where im working at u will know why lar hor.. did alot of tours.. super alot of walking.. legs aching liao.. sat on hot air balloon and river taxi.. nice!

kinda re-appreciating every little things we have here in sg.. esp after our ethnic tours.. very proud singaporean u have here.. esp after i visited the chinatown heritage center... we have really come a long way.. and i think i got a hell loads to learn abt singapore.. i seriously know nuts...

im really grateful man as compared to others.. i found what i really wanted.. seriously.. i dun dread coming to work on any day... im like kinda looking forward to what i can learn each day.. im hoping this spirit stays on for long..

girls.. pls go out with me..i jio! week one i din go out at all except hanyan honey birthday.... brrrr i cant believe i said that.. hahaha... im totally deprived of outings dnrs and movies...

take care everyone..*loves*

starting work...

2007-06-30T02:16:00.000-07:00

count down... less than 48 hours to start of my day one as part of the ever tired working population..

but i guess im kinda looking forward to it cos my week one is quite interesting.. not much time listening in the office alot of walking ard and seeing things.. i guess thats very much a part of my working environment too in the future.. shouts yay! but of cos i dun want to expect much because no expectation = more surprises.. haha siao.. machiam im speaking like im falling in love... madness...

well i feel that its also because i have had enough rest this past hols to prepare myself for working life.. its been quite a good rest.. a fruitful one i feel.. nope i did not become some who will clock 14 hours of sleep a day or something.. instead luckily i still made it for quite a few gym and badminton session although no fats lost as usual... =(

its been a very very long journey for me.. a tiring one.. in terms of finding employment opportunities, waitin for interview.. for 2nd round.. for final round for rejections... of cuz compared to alot of other people i did not have such a hard time.. but it wasnt as easy for me either.. counting back from oct till now.. i have lost track of how many resumes i have sent... from giving up my very first offer.. having the courage to do so.. and thereafter encouraging people to also give up offers as well.. till now.. finally landing with a job that i have always wanted... im truly thankful for how things have turned out.. thankful for everything that i have now... its was hardwork.. and of cos lotsa of luck involved... at this point in time.. i really cant ask for anything more.. really...

so with that.. im prepared for the life ahead of me... for many learning opportunities i ll be gg through both at work and in life... hopefully i ll find some really good frens at work and i ll cont to be my social butterfly everywhere i go...

dear friends i ll be on shift work for a while so date me hor.. i dun want to rot my off days off... more updates when i start work bah...

ciao... love u...

2007-06-18T05:22:00.000-07:00

finally i got my ass moving to blog about my hk trip.. although the pics have been up a few days alr.. my dear shanru say i shant blog abt BJ trip so i thot i ll make it up by posing more hk pics and comment more abt the experience there. BJ was damn fun with 2 of my longest ever buddies.. the experience was more relaxing.. more time to walk ard.. enjoy the time u have there and to really do things at ur own pace... except day 2.. where we visit 5 places in a day.. machiam artist.. at HK its abit different.. there were more rushing ard.. the need to visit alot of places in a day.. to use the time to the max... so all in all.. im darn happie with both trips... different experience but same amount of fun and laughter =)

14/5. the day started with us reporting to the airport even before the sky lit up. 630am i think.. and what can i saw.. camwhoring starts the very next moment we check in.. i guess its the first trip for us on plane and as u can see.. we behave like a newly formed tour group

the above is my roomie and i.. trying to pose for a decent foto b4 we checked in.. nope no pics of hotel.. becos very small and nothing much to take anw.. luckily we had 3 rooms if not we ll suffocate and die becos not only houses in hk are small.. their hotels are the same.. the moment u open the door u see everything they have in there.

me hugging dear jacq like a koala bear...

anw.. say i sua ku.. cathay was shiok man.. perhaps cos we took air china the previous time.. this ride was whoooo.. at the toileet was like meant for human usage.. for once i totally agree with hanyan.. the other planes are much bettter.. perhaps its simple the service which made the ride totally enjoyable.. thumbs up! food good service good! but air stewardness abit weird.. heeee...like to talk with eyebrow raised.. hiak hiak.. =) and the last pic up there.... poop! we landed our asses at hk airport.. we were waiting for airport transfer i think...

this is our hotel mayfair garden... the dining area is like the only open space in the hotel lobby other than the check in counter we are standing at on the 3rd pic... very small.. and adventurous us took all the maps that we have there.. and plan.. but largely.. we depended on sheila who have been there for N th times to take us ard.. i think without her.. we just be blindly finding our way ard all day long...

1st sumptuous meal of the day.. shao1 la4. the roast goose.. i think is goose lar.. dunno what meat.. the last pic up there.. was fantastic.. but also damn sinful.. is feels like u are drinking a teaspoon of oil each time u take a bite.. and the oil veggie ( translate urself) is like a bi4 dian3 dish everywhere we went.. its just like how me hanyan and maine will say abt having xiao bai cai in BJ for our meal everyday.. i think breakfast also they have that.. and last but not least.. the nai cai which was highly recommended by one of the store holder..was quite good but im not a fan of milk tea.. so yeaps judge for urself from that pic bah...

gui lin gao! taste like grass jelly except that its a lil bitter at times.. remember to add honey.. if not it be will be like eating herbs.. very smellly.. but it was very smoothing.. and of cuz very ex.. one bowl like this cost us abt 10 SGD.. imagine eating 10SGD of grass jelly... haha.. but its nice.. especially for few of us that fell abit sick on day one.. btw.. all the food here are from causeway bay.. one of our fav hunts...

day 2. 15/5

this is there mrt.. think its MTR there.. we bot our octupus card.. and we went to i think mongkok cos its like selling not very expensive stuff there aka we can afford.. we had lunch at food court.. *whisper: not nice*.. but the egg tarts were very good.. very appetising..worth the money.. i think their egg tarts are nice from just abt anywhere.. u got to try it..

after spending the day shopping and shopping.. bargaining and bargaining.. trying to make out what those chunks of canto phrases are.. we parked ourselves at ajisen for dnr...std is about the same as singapore but i think menu is abit different... but service very slow.. that is probably the only thing that is slow abt HK...

had my first KK donut and all i can say is.... ITS NOT NICE LEI... dunno if they are franchise or wat.. its totally not worth the 10hkd that we paid for it.. luckily we only bot one and not the whole box.. i ll probably be crying over the money wasted and wet the donuts in the process making it worse... i dunno what i saying to jac.. maybe i was forcing to gobble everthihg up... cant stand my expression.. ugly!

then we procees to have our long awaited mango desserts... yang zhi gan lu.. mango with pomelo and sago... now u know why its "mai dong xi chi dong xi" in hk.. u just cant stop eating.. we went to do what giggling girls like to do.. take neoprint.. and of cos the same prob of not being able to understand jap comes agn and we wasted money agn lor.. take stupid fotos.. but we had a fun time posing for the camera when the rest are trying to decorate/ salvage the neoprint..

then we manage to play the bball game the taiwanese are crazy about.. and we play round robin... roommates vs roomates... what u see up there is min by min enactment... from us being scared by hanhan and peipei.. to jac and lia turns.. to me and sheila waiting exciting for our turn.. i forgot who won.. but i know who won the most attn of the nite.. the 6 of us... the whole lot of pple were looking at us and apparantly we still live in our own world...

16/5.. disneyland day... my fav day

this is the entrance of disney that everyone can come in becos u dun need tickets here.. and there u have all of us posing as mickey mouse.. as 7 dwarfs.. my fyp mates and me on the fountain and me trying to mimick mickey surfing.. it feels like a day in wonderland for me.. its my first and i certainly din expect myself to enjoy it so much.. its like all ur worries get thrown away and u immerse urself in fairytales and not want to wake up...every min is like u are living in another world.. i dunno about others but for a moment.. i wish that day would nv end.. and i can travel ard the streets in carriage and mickey pooh and donald can join me for meals.. haha.. im crazy... well let the pics speaks for itself...

collecting tics..very expensive tickets man.. but cheaper than the other 3..

act 1: mickey and pluto. act 2: two siao kia trying to do the same pose..

on the 3rd pic.. is the world's ugliest version of mickey... looks like mario lor..

donald cannot communicate properly with us.. me and jac took a long time to get the pose rite... i love the final pic we took... i nv realise donald can be such a darling.. heeee...

presenting the very cute pooh.. totally clumsy but i like.. the marie which is nice smelling.. aha.. and my fav one.. pirate mickey... damn shuai... compared to the ugly one somewhere else.. i think this is by far the nicest version of mickey i like...

3rd pic is mickey mouse ice cream.. they are so evil to eat him up... anw i just realised i get abit giddy from merry go round... cannot sit for too long..

the gloves there are very nice.. i wish i was crazy enuff to buy but heng i din... anw.. stich is very cute.. she was laughing very heartily at lia when he/she/it saw her in the bathroom slippers.. lia's shoe fell off at one of the rides... and she wore that for the whole day... stitch was cute when it cant stop laughing.. i like the last pic too.. very interesting site we saw at the pirateland.. and from the pic.. u will understand what is si3 bu4 hui2 gai3... want to die alr.. stil dun want to change..

my lala land.... shiok!

papa mickey.. mama mickey.. baby mickey... mickey overdose... =)

too bad.. we could only take for 2 stops..

bye bye disneyland.. sobs...=---(

17/5 more shopping....

the first pic is what the central district MTR station looks like in the morning.. we were there at the peak hour to see how it feels like to be rushed in hk.. true to speak ah ma walk faster than us.. breakfast at xia4 huan2... cheap and good.. saw alot of working pple having breakfast there and desprately trying to flip thru the papers... then we went to take the horrible bus to THE PEAK.. it takes forever.. and ever.. to make those turns up the hill... i would say nth fantastic.. but u are just amazed how the rich can be cooped up there in their own world.. oblivious to how the rest of hk cramp themselves in small places... and to think i almost puke on my way down.. bad experience... below are crazy pictures we took to entertain ourselves when there is nothing much left to be explored

hanyan.. my bone nv break.... still intact...

then we went to mdm tussade... and camwhoring is like to the max here...

i dance beside yang zi qiong.. played for jay chou and im actually filled with royal blood.. for 2 mins of my life...

the last pic is lamest of all.. we are just trying to blend in the site that shows the typical hk life.. ah siao lei totally...

only jac is willing to pose with me singing with pavvoritti... we are bond gals... hiak...

spot me in the last pic. i think its kinda scary thou...

i wanna moonwalk like MJ

we ended day 4 with a visit to jacq cuzzie place where we were treated to a table of sumptous food.. pic speaks for itself... we practically bursted our tummy... proven hk hse are very small.. see the lil boy.. hes the kid of jacq cuzzie.. hes a lil shy but very good looking for a kid.. i think it jsut goes to show.. hk have loads of good looking people.. look at this kid... and all the tvb pple... the cuzzie and hubby are very happy and the family is so loving with this lil bundle of joy... so cute... and guess what we did.. look below lor...

MORE MANGO!

this shop is selling it a lil cheaper.. but i feel that cheaper has a price to pay.. the ones at xu liu shan are better... much better.. but i still prefer the one at chinatown right in sg.. its still the best.. mamamia... slurps..

last day... 18/5

how can we leave out yam cha... but yam cha very ex man... but i guess typical price we pay in sg.. so still acceptable.. but u just dun understand why they can do it everyday when its at this price... high std of living...

hours before we left for singapore... more shopping.. more egg tarts... im drinking pocari sweat.. wu zun's drink in that hana something show.. the only thing less are the money in my girls pocket... haha... splurge on nice lao po bing.. poor thing...

eating my bens and jerry at the cold airport.. siao man.. but shiok.. im only willing to indulge in B&J when im aboard and not spending my money... haha.. carrying shelia soft toy from disneyland. its so huggable... i can kiam in my crumpler..

btw.. the above stupid pic is becos i stupidly trust my stupid roomie.. to bring the 7 dwarf toy on board the plane...we bot dwarfs figurine at Disneyland then we wanted to take pic of it tgt at the airport as suggested by sheila.. and apparantly.. only i damn dumb listen lor.. take out and pose with her.. then we got weird looks from this CH*na lady thinking we are mad.. and this same lady's trolley bang on both jacqs leg earlier and she diao jacq and nv say sorrie.. so stupid duo us.. pretend this is lastest fone in town and pose for this pic.. madness...

bye bye hk!

one more pic from disneyland!!!!

phew.. my longest post ever... =)

help!!!!!!!!!!

2007-06-02T10:18:00.000-07:00

my lappie crashed. for the N time though.. but crashed like really badly cos my bro spilled milo into it. i dunno how many drops of milo flow happily into my laptop but from the looks of it i think its enough to make my lappie stop working. im waiting for it to like dry up and hopefully it can revived itself. but i doubt the wait will work. that day mum tried to on it and i was so happie to hear sound coming from my lappie... but to my horror the sound sounded like my maid on the vacuum and i think my lappie just went to hell that moment.

hai.. spoil again. im so sian lar.. now have to use desktop. this stupid desktop. the reason why my bro use my lappie is becos the desktop was spoilt. then very miracle-ly when my lappie spoil the desktop managed to CPR itself and come back alive. i dunno to be happie or angry that at least i have a comp to prepare for interview...

anw.. these days been gg out but heng savings haven deplete too fast cos im very jobless and very helpless now in terms of money sense.. staying in to prepare for interviews so more reasons to prepare harder and jia you!!!! finally the risk is well taken. and im indeed very thankful...very very grateful for how everything turn out to be. phew risk taker ngiam.

rites. take care of ur comp for u dunno when the next drop of milo ribena horlick will find their way in... boooo!

2007-05-22T20:44:00.000-07:00

the fairyland that simply puts the world to a stop time. i dunno if its the place or the people, i enjoyed every single minute i was there. simply magical. the place where everything is true, real and will never let u down unlike the ugly world we are all in. i so wanna be back there soon and live in that magical land.

hello beijing

2007-05-03T17:40:00.000-07:00

woohoo... this day is finally here.. WE ARE AT CHANGI AIRPORT.. ON BOARD AIR CHINA!!!!!!

great wall.. spa... palace here we come!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

tata!!!!!!!!!!!!!

stay tuned to our live updates!!!!

you cant imagine what im doing

2007-04-28T04:04:00.000-07:00

yes.. you cant imagine what im doing.. im actually doing FYP again... FYP is the most irritating alpahbet you can find on earth.. haha.. because we actually have to give a copy of findings to kind hearted companies who have helped us out with the survey.. so come to think of it.. im glad that i have a chance to do this.. if not it would mean my fyp had ended in a mess.. so phew (wipe sweat of my forehead) heng man.. thank god for kind souls out there in that cruel corporate world..

with me starting on fyp.. let me share with u the labour division in my fyp group.. i ll usually be the one starting.. why.. because my mind thinks faster than how well i can write.. im the one with the worst language in the group.. the one who sucks at written expression.. so i can only do what i good it.. ideas flooding.. haha.. thereafter my group mates will pick it up (thanks dears!) and carry on editing my rubbish to turn it into gem.. haha.. im so gonna die without them.. haha.. dead.

i have been wanting to blog about about school ending (sobs) but.. the evil spirit of youtube and sleep has been haunting me.. for your info.. i would say today is one of the first day in many months that i slept without setting an alarm clock.. and wrt to youtube.. i have been watching anything i can dig from wo cai.. old shows on kang xi.. and esp of dance floor that i have missed.. well i guess not many of you are tuning in to dance floor.. which i got myself addicted after catching goldfac 3(very proud if them) on the show.. well of cuz the american version of so you think u can dance is slightly better than the local version which i attribute one reason to be that they have a larger pool of talent to choose from.. but in my humble opinion, this reality show is by far THE ONLY VOTING show on tv in sg that the best of the best are allowed to be still in the compeition.. it pays tribute to who are the best in what they do.. and not who has more ability to vote.. for that.. all thumbs up.. i wish future competition would take the same perspective... and i cant wait for the finals this sunday.. oh its tmr!!! yay!!!

ok.. so stay tune to my entry on me having to end another exciting (???) chapter of my life as a student.. as i close the book filled with fun tears and joy... but not after i sleep more and watch more youtube...

take care! 5 days to china-great wall hiking... 16 days to hk dim sum

i have to blog

2007-04-20T02:48:00.000-07:00

haha.. kanna warned to blog liao...

no focus for this post.. just to share a random thot..

how many times did u.. in any of your relationship thot about how much you want to give in this relationship... how much are you giving.. willing to give and how much are you waiting to receive at the other end..

is there often a balance..

somehow i dun see equality.. nothing happened to me no worries.. just that i thot about the people around and started to ask myself this question.. why issit some people give in more than they should and some people give selflessly and awaits nothing in return.. and there are those who will only wait to receive and not knowing how much the other party yearns to be given back for..

perhaps this is just another reason that adds on to why life isnt fair..

hai.. school is gonna be over soon and im kinda stress up over finding employment for myself.. not much luck with jobs these days.. or should i say bad luck.. but its ok.. i have adopted the ah Q spirit in my job hunting process... hopefully one day it will bear fruits and the rose in me will blossom as time will tell...

take care everyone!!! its exams hell but remember... tough times dun last but tough people will have the last laugh

hhaha

2007-04-13T08:50:00.000-07:00

heee.. it been a really really good friday the 13th.. its been sucha long time i have laughed so much in one day.. so much that it kinda ache now.. hehe.. when to chinatown to pay for dwarfs trip to hk..and to one dunno one shop for dinner.. and as usual go out of control and order way too much food and we had to play scissor paper stone as teams to eat the bigger portion.. arent we mad.. but we laugh so much i think the owner wouldnt mind paying us to get our of this shop immediately because i got two waitress standing behind us and pointing fingers to us..

well school has officially ended and i wont be stepping into what south spine north spine.. i dunno if i kinda miss school perhaps school life more than school.. maybe the biggest part of my uni life would be to do the above stupid things in sch with dwarfs and i wont be missing too much of that for now at least..

ll blog abt my last day soon.. and of cos my never too late post abt finally leaving school thots.. kinda stress up lately.. handling exams and other stuff.. got to go pom pom
see ya ard!

hai

2007-04-11T08:10:00.000-07:00

hai.. i din know i could get so affected when i do a bad job at school.. last sem it was 307 derivatives presentation.. now is strategic management presentation.. maybe its just presentation which is sth i have grown to love to do ever since im in university.. oh wells at least it only got screwed up by a very unimportant and unrelated comment. the front was splendid.. well done team whoosh.. we are among the better performing groups in class way to go!!!

i shall only be able to take that as the true essence of the stimulation business game.

keep going baby. i can do it

2007-04-01T08:38:00.000-07:00

i really really wanted to do a good and nice post today.. something happy.. but right smack in the night.. i dunno what came over me.. all the emotions and things that i have been keeping right behind my mind came all over me.. all things that have been affecting me but i keep pushing them away becos i wanted to conc on what i really had to do then...

i know i ve been a lucky gal.. a good family has always been there for me which is what has been keeping me gg.. but what else is there left for me to be happy about.. seriously what else..

i duno if i deserve all this.. i really dunno.. maybe i do.. when will some more good things happen to me?

what the hell.. probably no one is reading this.

mini depression mode. at least for tonite =(

my baby is born :)

2007-03-15T07:32:00.000-07:00

"its been a long & winding journy
but im finaly here 2nite
picking up the pieces &
walking back into the light"

its been an entry i have been waiting all this while through out the year to post..

the day has come and... MY FYP IS DONE!!!!!!!!!
15 march 2007 13:43:45 i handed my fyp to my tutor!!!!!

looking back.. im blurred as to what has happen..blurred as to how my tutor forced us to create a brand new topic in half an hour to decide whether he wants to take us... i am blurred how our many ideas were being put down by others.. by how many pple have turn away as we requested help... how things were almost un-overcome-able... how i travelled to sch every single weekday for 10 weeks.. no big deal but i travel on the road for 4 hours daily if i go school... how we almost thot we couldnt finish our fyp on time.. the time buried in research paper after research paper.. buried in generating ideas after ideas... how we were full of confidence for our ideas only to be put right back to ground zero the next minute... how we went begging literally and behave like pest to get things done...how i stayed in school for dinner for days.. stay till i can go home with the man who closes the lab..okays looks like its not too blurred after all...

but there are somethings i will never forget in this mentally and physically challenging journey...

my 2 very good fyp mates.. the most important thing about fyp in my opinion was not about the right topic.. nor abt speed... its how you work with your partners which i feel has been the greatest joy in the past year.. the 2 person whom i thot could really complement my working style was the biggest bundle of joy that pulled me thru this hectic year.. the stupid jokes we shared... how we taught each other to pick ourselves up everytime we fall deeper... how we picked each other up.. hear each others woes when we felt no one else on earth can understand ourselves better... the times we tried to hold back our tears to push on with the projects.. the shout-out when we literally want to pull other people's head off.. the bond we shared.. the excellence in our project... the team spirit was awesome.. im truly glad this journey bought us much closer tgt than we were before... to think our tutor warned us our r/s will sour.. we managed to prove him wrong a 100 times over..

how my girlfriends were super understanding towards my schedule and fly aeroplane tactics... especially roomie who would have killed me over and over agn for flying her aeroplane.. how my frens have pushed me on... 4/7 dwarfs who were team ispirato (that's us) major pillar of support.. jac our 1/4 fyp mates.. someone who truly shared our joys and sorrow even as we shared the same fyp tutor... and others who made this journey a much easier one than it would have been...

it would be another good 3 months that i will know the results to my fyp... but in my heart.. its already the best... world-class...

the bits and pieces of the journey will always be deeply embedded in my heart.. with the experience in FYP, i will bring the never say die spirit with me.. to wherever i embark on my next journey...

gg to have my long awaited zzzz... heee... i ll leave with a quote that has pushed my team and i forward through the year...

"it is not falling into the water that will kill; its staying in it that will drown you"

happy :)

UPDATES

2007-03-02T19:48:00.000-08:00

my still very boh--ring life....

the many evenings of eerie and spooky NTU i have seen thru out this month of feb...

the place i spent many of my sunday evenings with my parents.. its serves damn good zhi char.. but till now i still dunno which part of singapore it exactly locates...

my very messy study room as usual.. what news. heh... my table gonna break apart if i do this more... *spot my hello kitty phone*

one of the fridays away.. i was having steamboat with huijun shimin and wang yun.. we came across this yuan yang in this bottle.. i just think its super funnie they way they use this container to serve.. machiam open present.. but then.. the rotten apple theory applied right away.. what looks good on the outside.. sucks in the inside.. the yuan yang was horrible.. worse than what i always do in sch to put coffee and tea tgt when i buy drinks at the canteen.. yucks! only shimin who has nv drank yuan yang thing its nice... heee sua ku... *spot shimin long long hands*

DWARFS CNY BAI NIAN_ING

dunno im sleeping on peifang or taking pictures.. heh..

whos the focus.. the painting or us???

never eat orange before... =P

my lovely banker sister.... missing han was doing modelling... financial modelling lar..heee

me and my smokey glasses at steam boat... really got alot of steam man...

4/5 banker... special appearance mr alan khow... our captain is not here...

jacq and one of the many super big prawns sheila aunty bought for us... or shld i call it lobster...

a true blue of evidence how we are always in our own world...

finally a nice picture of us all tgt.... :)

I HEART THEM!

2007-02-16T08:38:00.000-08:00

for once i dun agree with TGIF!!! its been a very bad day for me today..i felt like crying.. i suddenly feel like bursting and shouting at the wall today.. maybe its the pressure cooker thats starting to overcook itself.. maybe i just dun look as well as i seems to be able to take things... and i dun think i deserve this.. its cny.. good stuff.. so here are some fotos of the outings thus far..

MIMI farewell bowling session...

how come my face look like its been iron-ed over...

eeyer take without me.. but nevertheless Happie happie together!!! kee organise outing!!! if u are reading this...

JC impromtu outing.. hee!

damn delicious and filling food at village (vi-la-jay) super filling... whoooo

and of course how can we forget the second round of food man..

and lastly a new look for you.... :)

Have a wonderful chinese new year peeps! gong xi oink cai!

2007-02-11T06:26:00.000-08:00

Introducing the new characters of my very "exciting" life...

1) 4th fyp mate of team ispirato SHOU TAO

the story behind shou tao is that ms hanhan and i love to play with peifang little angel heart while doing fyp at peifang hse everytime.. and one day she decided to give it a squeeze and realise it looks like a shou tao. and ta da!

shou tao is damn useful can.. can use to ba3 mai4.. you know those lil cushion those chinese doctor use to test ur hearbeat. next shou tao and use and play five stones... hehe.. crap.

2) my very old hello kitty phone that i took one hour to fix the wires...

ok that more than about sums up my "exciting" life.. haha... been very busy with travelling to school.. calling companys up for fyp and stuff.. hopefully tiring as it will be and has been... we can complete our first draft in time... then whoosh whoosh!!!

anyway i met up with jc girls yest day.. and boy i suffer a stomachache from laughing too much at some of the earth stupidest and lamest joke we have in JC... we are planning to have a JC chalet after exams... i hope it comes true!!!

take care everyone!!! weather very hot.. drink more water!!!!

till then,

ngiamy

tired

2007-01-31T06:41:00.000-08:00

hai.. shi4 lei4 de4 lo1...

every wednesday is my shag day.. 930 to 630... bahhhh... somemore 2 hour break still go career fair squeeze with pple.. carry two barang barang walk ard the whole sch today... at chinese lec also cannot wake up although my tutor so super entertaining.. heee...

haha.. as u can see i have nth to write.. haha.. yeah tmr go pao pao.. woosh...

by the way my stimulation game team name is: whoosh.. haha.. gg to read my wu lin mi ji later.. aka the manual.. hehe... i ll be back later to tell u how screwed my 311 tutorial is..

cheer up everyone.. its a new 24 hours tmr again!

life

2007-01-28T19:20:00.000-08:00

they always say.. to take charge of your life.. your life and destiny are in your own hands... but i guess we all know now.. some things will never be in our control.. something called life that we bought with us onto tis earth for free.. din belong to us solely... but remains in the hands of fate.

treasure each day you wake up alive, this brand new 24 hours that you are once again given. this 24 hours that some people will pay anything to have it.. this 24 hours that money can never buy.

take care my frens.

hai ya

2007-01-28T01:01:00.000-08:00

hai ya... sunday evening again... i always hate sunday evening.. it always look as if i dunno what have i done for this week and i will be left stoning think whats left to be done...

its gonna be the end of jan alr.. seriously i wanna say... WTF!!!! WHY SO FAST!!!!... it seems like sch just started and i go to sch everyday and how feb is a few days away.. cny pls dun come.. the moment u decide to come and go out of my life.. i will be dead.. with all the presentation and report... too bad man.. i think i must been a too fast too furious jaguar dragon or shark my past life that now im always as slow as a snail.. forever realising that half a day is gone when im done with 0.1 of the things i set out to complete.. hai.. why always like that... must 3R alr.. revamp, reduce and rejuvernate...

anyway i wanna share something... do u all look at ur poopoo after u all shit.. cos my mum always say must take a look no matter how disgusting.. from my past experience.. you just cannot hide whatever u ate the previous meal from the look and smell of your shit.. meaning if u ate papaya then your poopoo will have papaya smell.. if u eat onion.. not only fart smelly but ur poopoo will stink.. then interestingly yesterday my poopoo is orange lei... die liao.. dunno what i eat.. then my mum and i sat and think what did i eat.. i think back about what i ate at ziyen 21st party.. but i nv eat much lei... nothing orange colour... oh no.. i drank orange juice... die... hows ur poopoo today.. sorry man.. nth to blog abt in my life other than my orange poopoo.. i hoope u are not eating now.. hehe...

ziyen bdae was fun.. becos all the aunty senior meaning my batch and above only do one thing at this kind of occasion... GOSSIP!!! haha.. kinda fun seeing my og from the last orientation.. crapping with winnie siyi shufen and qianyi... at least at that moment life was not only about school for me...

ok got to go back to fyp.. damn... yay! tonite got dance floor!!!

byebye =)

2007-01-21T01:22:00.000-08:00

Mum is at work, dad is out to meet someone for dinner, bro went out becos he din want to be stuck at home with me for dinner which means it leave me all alone at home typing this entry just for you =)

i think i have a love hate relationship with blogger.com.. either i act all crazy in love with blogging and blog more than once a day.. or i end up not blogging for a whole 2 weeks.. hee just a nicer explanation for being lazy... well these 2 weeks has been kinda hectic for me.. for a moment i seem to be living a life of a secondary student.. i leave my hse ard 730 or 8 and i will only return home at nite after everyone has finish dinner at home. no marks for guessing.. its sch and fyp.. speaking of fyp.. im kinda stress out by it and at the rate its going.. im gg to go all red in the face even before cny is here... if only fyp means find-your-partner.. i will be more than just glad to do it.. hehe... i seems to have lost all the zest i had for fyp.. i dunno even know if all the good that my tutor say of the proj for us is true.. but all i know is.. even my grandchildren in future might not wanna hear them... oh whatever...

btw.. im quite sad that carrie of project superstar din not make it to the finals... boo! she improved so much from when i heard her sang ah mei' ping chang xin on 22/11... you know why i remember cos 22/11 was the day all of us screwed our service marketing paper.. actually i stop believing in all these competition.. especially when i do have a couple of fren who went for audition and stuff... bi3 sai4 shi4 hei1 an4 de4... i always believe and i still do.. it not a talent show.. its just a whose father mother got more money show... why cant we have a competition that solely based on like skills.. or whatever... its a pity the talents will never get to shine.. its a pity how local reality tv surface to be of this standard.. her rendition of chu mo really sent goosebump all over me... i guess at the end of the day.. its just a tv show and i guess i got one more less show to watch... more time to do my readings...

ok now u can forget whatever i ve said on top becos i want you to catch:

THE DANCE FLOOR which premieres tonite.. A group of gals from my hall which includes 2 very good seniors of mine are in it.. SUPPORT GOLD FAC3!!!!! GO GOLD FAC3! HEHE.. lets just give local tv a lil more support...

the top left hand poster are done me deniece siyi and winnie... hehe.. not bad la hor... hehe.. got to pompom alr.. and cont fy pi4... take care everyone...

lub, ngiamy =)

2007-01-04T21:06:00.000-08:00

Your EQ is 133

50 or less: Thanks for answering honestly. Now get yourself a shrink, quick!51-70: When it comes to understanding human emotions, you'd have better luck understanding Chinese.71-90: You've got more emotional intelligence than the average frat boy. Barely.91-110: You're average. It's easy to predict how you'll react to things. But anyone could have guessed that.111-130: You usually have it going on emotionally, but roadblocks tend to land you on your butt.131-150: You are remarkable when it comes to relating with others. Only the biggest losers get under your skin.150+: Two possibilities - you've either out "Dr. Phil-ed" Dr. Phil... or you're a dirty liar.

What's" Your EQ (Emotional Intelligence Quotient)?

2007-01-04T20:58:00.000-08:00

Your Personality Cluster is Extraverted Thinking

You are:
Organized and logical - a master at puzzlesCompetitive in almost any arena of lifeObjective when necessary, but passionate about what you truly loveIntolerant of excuses and incompetence

What's" Your Personality Cluster?

2007-01-04T20:57:00.000-08:00

Your Power Level is: 75%

You're a very powerful person, and you know that all of your power comes from within.Keep on doing what you're doing, and you'll reach your goals.

How'>http://www.blogthings.com/howpowerfulareyouquiz/">How Powerful Are You?

2007-01-04T20:49:00.000-08:00

You Are 77% Feminine, 23% Masculine

You are in touch with your feminine side.Sensitive, intuitive, and caring are all words that describe you.And you're just masculine enough to relate to both men and women.

Are'>http://www.blogthings.com/areyoumasculineorfemininequiz/">Are You Masculine or Feminine?

2007-01-04T20:39:00.000-08:00

You May Be a Bit Borderline...

Your mood swings make a roller coaster look tame!When you're up, you're a little bit crazy...And when you're down, your whole world is crashingScary thing is, these moods can change by the minute!

What'>http://www.blogthings.com/whatpersonalitydisorderareyouquiz/">What Personality Disorder Are You?

test test

2007-01-04T20:12:00.000-08:00

How You Life Your Life

You have a good sense of self control and hate to show weakness.You're laid back and chill, but sometimes you care too much about what others think.You prefer a variety of friends and tend to change friends quickly.You tend to always dream of things within reach - and you usually get them.

How Do You Live Your Life?

whats wrong?

2007-01-03T02:01:00.000-08:00

dunno what the hell is wrong with me today... i woke up at 8am in the morning feel real tired.. it felt as though i din sleep at all the previous nite.. wanted to ignore my maid to go back to bed.. but damn that stupid fy PI i have to get up and get back to school... the only time i felt awake during the whole of today was when my fyp tutor zhi dian mi jing on what are the last changes to make for our survey... may it be as powerful as he said it will be... woooosh!!!

saw 5/7 dwarfs today in school.. although only for 10 mins... kinda have the so far yet so near feelings recently.. dunno why.. seems as though there is a million things on my mind to tell them but i dunnno where to start.. on the good side.. im meeting my jc gals which i accidentally pang seh-ed last week on saturday... whoooo.. hopefully hp and kuang (WHO IS STILL IN TAIWAI!) can make it.. suddenly gg to vivocity which i totally dread seems like the best idea on earth.. becos its really rare all of us can make it.. and i cannot outwin the nel-kia.

on an even better note! shanru is safe and sound in norway! thank god!!!! hopefully she can cope with the weather man.

tata! gg for daddy birthday dinner whooosh!

new fren

2007-01-02T03:13:00.000-08:00

new kid in the hse! lets welcome pyagu (clap! clap!).. my new water container courtesy of han han my dearest angel for xmas 06. dun see pyagu no up.. pyagu does wonders! all thanks to pyagu i will know if i had my sufficient water intake for day. its says 8 glasses of water. minimum intake on its stomach. although pyagu is making me go to toilet more often these days, i hope it can gimme more beautiful and smoother than doufu skin.. skin that ants will climb and tumble down.

to more wonders that pyagu will create on my health,
ngiamy

ps: kinda sucky that its alr the 2nd day of 2007 and im still at home.. my mum still say why u so poor thing before she went for her mahjong game.. its so boring at home.. im actually looking forward to picking my mum up from my aunt place after her mahjong game. cos i wanna see how she play mahjong as she is damn good at it. heeee.. to hell with boring life.. fyp here i come for tmr... pui... FY PUI.

hook on picasa ( an lar i know very sua ku lar )

2007-01-01T07:08:00.000-08:00

heres a toast to some of the people who have made days in 2006 more bearable than it would have been without them.

the girls i have to come to know for nearly half my life. im missing shanrooney alr. tag when u see this ok?

6 crazy darlings of mine who have made so much impact on me. the best thing in ntu! ever!

some of my hall gals im closer to... and 23rd jcrc.. the best committee anyone can be in.. forever zai and seh and what more can i say.. wahaha...

actually im playing with picasa lar and doing sth decent with it.. dun laugh lar i know i damn sua ku now than use but we all agree with the saying better late then never rite.. i hope 2007 will be a brand new year and i will heng heng... heng until cannot heng.. althhough i spend my 010107 doing nth at home. and guess what i was doing at the first few moments of 07... I was bathing.. hehe.. boh-ing...

tag hor when u all visit arboh i blog also dunno got pple read not.. come on.. ri xing yi shan ok?

huat ah!

ngiamy

ps: jc group this comp dun have ur fotos and ms chua muimui dun want to send me. so direct the verbal abuse to her not me hor!

last post for the year 2006

2006-12-30T23:47:00.000-08:00

last day of the year 2006... boy was this year kinda fast but also slow in some sense.. so slow that so many things had to happen in the same year..the countless disasters.. pains and suffering of people in third world country.. the endless pleas for world peace.. and there was practically nothing to celebrate about in this year. so i guess there is a cause for celebration to welcome in the year 2007.

like they say: new year new hopes!

feeling kinda feeling-less now.. quite glad that 06 is like finally finally gg to be over.. its been a not too good year for me.. mentally being very tired as many things zoom past my mind.. be it work.. family.. school.. friends.. life... not that i haven been happie or what.. just that things still do not go the way i want it to be.. as much as i try to want what i have... what i have still doesnt seems to be ever enuff for me to want... im beginning to believe that it really doest pay to be kind.. no one cares if u have been a good girl.. santa doesnt see it...

anw enuff for a sad post. i hope the coming year will be a good one for me.. a really good one please.. im pleading.. let me be good in the things im best at.. better at things i suck at.. starting to like things i hate to do... just let all the love i need from everyone come flooding at me... i need to get the pessimistic of me off me..

i made some wishes for the year... quite priceless but yet are simple wishes of mine. please let it come true.

always in my mind,
ngiam

HUAT AH!!!!!!!!!

2006-12-28T09:17:00.000-08:00

lazy bum finally decided to blog... heee.. thanks to the reminder on the left..

anw, i just wanna blog this happy day now... today has been a really good day.. results was out today.. and thanks to all who have been blessing me.. angels.. wishing stars.. im truly happie with what i have.. of cuz its not the best results lar becos it will never happen to me.. cos im only a hardworking ass. i got 2A- for my finance module and a B+ for my marketing module.. it is really the best best best best post xmas gift for me.. something i ve been waiting to come all thru out this hols.. whooooooooooo!!!! it will give me all the movtivation to work even harder for next sem...

yeah!!!! anyway my dad is talking talking talking to my bro.. ( those who know my dad style. dun laugh!) so im supposed to go listen now... and give my 3 cents worth and take this chance to scold my bro too for all the nites he hogged on to the comp... yay!!!!

have a great new year!!!! muacks!!!!

singaporeans

2006-12-12T22:49:00.000-08:00

Singaporeans, everything also want to complain.

bored doing fyp,
mickey

fuming!

2006-11-30T08:03:00.000-08:00

wah lau BU SHI double spec BU SHI REN SHI MA?? initially last sem my frens and i wanted to take advanced corporate finance but becos we werent double spec-kers. we were not allowed to choose our timetable first.. we ALWAYS have to let them go first.. and becos very stingy school dun want to to open more class and end up we being suay sai we couldnt get any slots.. not even one of us.. nvm we just tell ourselves to try again this sem thinking that the school is making up to us by also offering the mod this sem...

GUESS WHAT????!?!?! corporate finance is offered.. two miserable slots..u know how to count.. one.. two.. dun need to use hand to count use eyeball count also more than enuff... nvm.. the worse thing that can happen is that it has to be right on the same day as ab311 our core.. who on earth would like to have papers on the same day.. which happens to be right at the first few days of exams... nvm.. take other mods lor.. wah guess what can happen.. every mod only open up to.......... ONE class.. one class very big arh.. u think forensic science arh... hold classs in audi...

i know im quite petty to be angry over such matters.. but i really had enuff of this school.. do you know what adequate means.. have u seen the word sufficient.. do u know what it means to serve ur students basic needs... do u even know we are paying... somemore have to share class with foreigners.. FUCK UP! I HAD ENUFF PLANNING MY LAST TIMETABLE! THANKS FOR SPOILING MY HOLIDAY MOOD RIGHT FROM THE VERY START!

hip hip hurray...

2006-11-30T05:58:00.000-08:00

heeeeeeeeehaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa!!!!! 29th nov was finally here yesterday.. break free man.. it was a truly pure agony waiting for exams to come.. this year i had 3 papers.. 22nd 28th 29th.. and i promise that next sem i will never put a ge paper right smack infront of my core.. will die lor.. cos i was throughoutly drain out after my 307 derivatives securities paper.. i could feel my head floating while studying for my next paper.. ok abit kua zhang... but yea get the other idea.. post examination activities.. you can nv imagine what i did... I cried.. to my hearts content.. i spent the day at shelia hse having steamboat and watching a thai love story "letter".. i cry and cry and cry.. until i was so tired.. i fell alseep almost immediately after the movie.. wat an unique way to spent post exams..

i seriously banned myself from coming online or to log on to msn during exam period.. so i found myself a new past time to do during exam period.. i took out all my postcards and letters written by all my friends to me from my jc times till now.. cards that were written by my darlings on my bdae.. shanru's angel cross stich.. words of encouragement that my bowling darlings wrote to one and another.. how we encourage each other across the lanes.. how we motivated each other to do better each time and much much more.. how we wrote to each other during lectures when we saw one another sad face in school.. and the bdae cards i have received over the years..

anw i want to share here with you all a poem written to me by two very lovely freshie of mine.. it was written to me on my last day in hall before i shifted out.. when they held a mini farewell session for me.. it goes sth like this...

cindy we love you
we know you love us too
you are our best senior
how could we ask for more
but how can we be your best freshies
oh please tell us more
how cheesy can this sound
we know you are squirming on the inside
dont you ever forget us
else if you come back
we will leave you outside
drop by if you are free
we dont mean literally drop
you know what we mean
it's been great having you as our senior
we understand what hall 3 means to you
we will try to make it as fun as you did
thank you for everything you have imparted to us
we sincerely mean not only the gossip
but also how you have shown us to give our everything to the hall.

im an emotional freak and reading this poem just proves it one more time.. it deeply touched me at that point in time becos i never expected sth like that to be coming from two girsl whom i only know barely a mth.. people who were strangers to me a mth ago... and from the many well wishes i have got from my frens in hall..

its been a good coming to 3 months since i left hall.. i haven exactly thot of how life has been entirely different living at home and in hall.. but for sure.. im starting to find singpore rather big or that SMRT routes are damn extensive that the red line goes anywhere and anywhere before they come to amk.. i go to school almost everyday.. on good weeks perhaps only 4 days a week..

i guess it was a right time to move home becos alot of changes took place and i think i did move home for the right reasons.. life has been good anw so im really thankful for that.. of cos i left a part of me there when i left my used to be 2nd home.. thanks to technology its been a not too difficult task to keep in touched with my closer frens in hall.. but more imptly.. being home.. im so much closer to my loved ones.. my family and my frens who are still right here in the central of singapore.

rites.. im gonne catch up with some tv man.. take care everyone! if there is people reading this thou.. heee

lub,
ngiamy

yay!!!! 218 is finally over!!!

2006-11-08T04:37:00.000-08:00

yay!!! they are my international financial management project battlemates.. who sits tgt in class for boring journey to planet pluto.. cos we always dun understand what the tutor trying to say we always call the class journey to pluto... its finally over and i can conc on preparing for exams.. before i end off.. in shirt is my dearest sister lia.. and in pink is my new pretty fren charlene who is the only new fren i made this sem ... yay!!! 3 cheers... and hopefully cheer to our project grade!!!!

woman strength

2006-11-05T08:33:00.000-08:00

no wonder they say: nv underestimate the strength of woman

one more pic.. of halloween baby 21st

2006-11-03T07:03:00.000-08:00

hehe.. i love them!!!!

my halloween baby 21st!!!!!

2006-11-03T06:24:00.000-08:00

the ones that kept me sane in tutorials and boring lectures in nyjc... the ones i wanna grow old with... =)

bad tuesday!

2006-10-17T04:13:00.000-07:00

today hasnt been too good.. the best thing that happened today was that i was able to acc my "best friend cum monster" to drive from redhill to school..and that i bump into huijun on the zebra crossing and gossip with her for a while and im meeting her on thurs.. the rest of the day was pure crap.

like i wrote in my nick: i need to rediscover the joy in learning. i have never lost and i wont lose this time"

i cannot remember when i became this hardworking at my studies.. probably after my chicken pox in sec 4.. but i know as much as i complain about learning and having to read the textbooks do the endless calculations and tutorials.. the joy in learing and the desire to give just the best shot in everything i do.. push me on each time to achieve whatever results i can get... im not concerned about doing well... im more concerned or rather very concerned that i give my best effort in preparing for the paper.. because i cannot bear to let myself down..

i believe in learning how to enjoy the process of doing anything.. back in hall.. no matter how hard it was to complete my duties.. how tiring it was to go for meeting at midnite... approaching N pple to join cheerleading... how hard i have to make myself sleep for only 5 hours a day so that i can finish all the tuts and projs.. i never gave up.. becos the only person i will let down is myself.. and i hold the same attitude for my studies and my life...

but i cannot deny.. im losing the faith in me that i can do this again... i really hate to see myself think back if i made the right choice when i chose to study what im doing now.. because it will affect my whole life... i thot i had the determination to right whatever wrong i might have made.. but its just getting more difficult and difficult... im beginning to suspect if i have lost my brain..

the train ride home today gave me some space to think and readjust for the mad things that happened.. i know im not smart.. either am i any smart asshole who can think just as fast as the tutor... but i know for myself that all these will only make me stronger.. i will be a winner becos i will get myself through all these..

its a small hill ahead.. and i have big wheels to carry me thru man.. or at least my ass is big enuff.. the more finance makes me hate them.. the more im ready to fall head over with it.. i hope my sky wouldnt be as haze as singapore's man... i wan the sunshine after the rain...

cramps cramps,

moose

i want a elder sister!!!!

2006-10-11T03:48:00.000-07:00

i was reading roomie blog... abt her alumi dinner.. and the first thot that came on to my mind was not about getting a job or sch stuff.. because probably i have been worrying abt it almost everyday...

i thot of how nice it would be if i had a sister.. someone who would tell me abt the cruel world.. tell me what to expect.. and what should i do to secure a future outside the bubble we all live in... maybe im not someone who is good at deciding the future that i want i guess.. i wish a sister would be around for me to whine.. to hao lian my good results... to look up upon.. but then i think if i had one... i would not treasure also.. seeing how my brother bites at me... thankfully i have good parents.. they are all i can ever asked for...

well.. haha... i guess i will just be a nice sister then... i cant enjoy it.. i will let someone else enjoy the joy of having an elder sister... unless he bites into my space again... cant seem to get a good enough resume done.. dun even know why im trying to send to the big banks.. i just say to myself everyday.. if i never try i nv know... to motivate myself...

seeee-teeeeee-banggggggggg... will you ever get a chance to look at my resume?????

go go go...

fyp stagnantising process,

mickey moose

dying soon

2006-10-07T03:56:00.000-07:00

bahhhhhh... the haze is killing me soon.. somehow its getting misty in my study room as well.. this morning i woke up.. imaginging myself to be in some genting hotel overlooking the forest.. PSI is 98 now... bluff.. it looks worse than this morning at PSI 103...

the haze is decelarating my work process.. cant seems to get anything done with my eyes highly irritable.. but die man.. so much things to do... 305 journal... 218 proj... fyp and fypp.. wah piang.. not forgetting my until-now-also-dun-understand derivatives and securities module.. i shld be glad im still alive lei... hehe..

just got back form sakura buffet.. thanks to my dearest president... nice lunch with dearest 23rd.. we really prove that we only can talk about work and gossip.. i really hope we can have one more dinner or gathering like this soon.. lai~ went to shop ard.. but i shop like a man.. so being lazy to go into any shops.. i din buy anything.. stupid me.. left all my vouchers at home...

alrights.. gg to watch my tv serial now.. hk show which my dearest darlings alr watched and forget on their favourite scv channel 55... neh neh neh..

side note, my dwarfs calls me huat kueh.. how come i nv huat de...

haze ah haze,

mickey moose...

how to get to west coast mac????

2006-09-25T09:27:00.000-07:00

NGIAMY BIRTHDAY: FRIDAY 29TH SEPTEMBER
VENUE: WEST COAST MAC
TIME 1900-2100

in case u dunno how to get there this might be of help:

the below url is the map of the whole area, u might want to enlarge to see whats surrounding the mac itself

http://www.streetdirectory.com/asia_travel/travel/travel.php?x=20216.0497&y=31415.097118056&star=1&iconlist=star1,20216.0497,31114.4400;&searchcompany=&searchunitno=&searchblock=71&searchstreetname=West+Coast+Highway&searchbuildingname=Mcdonald+West+Coast+%2F+Mc+Cafe&searchpostalcode=126844&searchmasterid=142782&searchbuildingid=30426&level=6

there is only one bus there and its service 176. the below url is the bus service guide for 176 which starts from bukit merah interchange to bukit panjang interchange and vice versa. so do check out where u can take 176 from and not necessarily at the interchange.

http://www.smrtbuses.com.sg/busguide/guide.asp

go to item 2 to search for the bus guide.

ps: it will take abt 20-25 mins if u are taking the service from JE library. take the bus from the busstop alongside the library.

if u need any extra help, drop me a sms yea?? the journey might be long due to the "off" location but its really one of the nicest mac around. i really hope to see you there and pls do be on time because the 2 hour duration is quite packed.

YOUR PRESENCE WILL BE THE BEST GIFT FOR MY 21ST BIRTHDAY! SEE YOU ON FRIDAY!

wheee~

2006-09-24T02:40:00.000-07:00

i almost~ almost~ forgot my password.. am i pea brain or what...

anw i just wanna shout! im sooo o bored... i woke up at 830 to edit report.. and most happening thing in life thus far is that i had a quiz yesterday... on a SATURDAY aka the wonderful start of the sem break.. at 1pm in the afternoon.. i congratulate myself for living thru that fact.

its recess week.. which part of recess do pple in the uni dun understand.. R.E.C.E.S.S.. this week is freaking packed.. wanted to organise an outing for captain planet.. but booo the only day left is friday.. which is *ahem* my mac party.. what the hell.. something extra to look forward to friday at least.. hiak..

still waiting for coffeebean to call me back abt the cake.. waiting for mac to call me back.. not waiting for somemore rejects... i hope birthday blues doesnt hit me hard...

almost done with 305... but the slides are still in nonexistent.. gonna head back to do more work man..

before i leave u with my splendid post of the month... here an interesting mail i got from wee wee...

THE TRUTH ABOUT MEN!

1. The nice men are ugly.

2. The handsome men are not nice.

3. The handsome and nice men are gay.

4. The handsome, nice, and heterosexual men are married.

5. The men who are not so handsome, but are nice men, have no money.

6. The men who are not so handsome, but are nice men with money think we are only after their money.

7. The handsome men without money are after our money.

8. The handsome men, who are not so nice and somewhat heterosexual, don't think we are beautiful enough.

9. The men who think we are beautiful, that are heterosexual, somewhat nice and have no money, are cowards.

10. The men who are somewhat handsome, somewhat nice and have money and thank God are straight, are shy and NEVER MAKE THE FIRST MOVE!!!

11. The men who never make the first move, automatically lose interest in us when we take the initiative.

NOW...WHO THE HELL UNDERSTANDS MEN?!?!

im back!!!!

2006-08-03T04:09:00.000-07:00

whooo.. im finally back from a very tiring camp... not because its physically shag... but mentally shag.. the most feng feng yu yu camp ever... so much so.. the theme for the camp has become "suan le".. as a senior attach, monster hunt cast, JCRC attach and even a freshie all in one... becos i think less than 20 gals came.. freaking shag... so much ups and downs... glad that its all over and and ended with a good meal at tampines mall.. kudos to FOC main com.. its has been a blast given the conditions we have had.. kudos to F.R.I.E.N.D.S which was formed in the midst of the camp by people who had no friends.. hiak hiak...

im going to sleep somemore now.. be back with fotos...

2006-07-22T02:59:00.000-07:00

our graduation cremonies pictures... taken in the midst of the sumptous buffet.. heee... my dearest interns fren who have made life easier.. cheers to new friendship found!!!!

2006-07-21T21:46:00.000-07:00

a picture paints a thousand word.. i will let em say it all

2006-07-21T21:23:00.000-07:00

some people busy taking pictures... pasting stickers... and not BOWLING AT THE BOWLING ALLEY!!!!!!

2006-07-21T21:18:00.000-07:00

haha.. see someone trying to talk to sashimi... my group on wonderful interns having a nice dinner at sakae (FINALLY!!!!) on a tuesday after our pa ending... if only i have pictures of someone dropping the soya sause.. someone' s hair almost being "kiap" by the converyer belt.. and some one keep forcing people to finish 1/2 of the sushi...

2006-07-21T21:08:00.000-07:00

presenting to you.. the shen the jing and the bing... posing with hand puppets... duhz...

packing

2006-07-21T01:24:00.000-07:00

finally feeling a little better today... and i decided to pack my lil study room to be to prepare for the new academic year to come.. i realise how many postcards i have written and i have received all these years... so many friends so many memories... im soo missing them now... are u missing me like im missing you all now... okays im playing some dumb games with pee pee now.. till then miss me...

take care,

ngiamy

sick

2006-07-19T20:16:00.000-07:00

it was suppose to be a happy week hanging around anywhere with anyone.. but i had to be sick and stay at home for 3 days.. what a happy start to my remaining holidays... even my grandma has more energy than me now... =( drink more water peeps.. the weather is hell outside.. bless me

take care,

the sick pie..

NEW entry

2006-06-23T20:49:00.000-07:00

hallo.. in case u bump into my blog thinking that its still the same entry.. ITS NOT.. even the one before this was put up only a few days ago.. besides.. my damn computer is up again.. so PLS take the cobwebs title away from my blog k..

anyway, im aching all over now.. why??? becos i went to play soccer with my ocbc office people.. heee.. early release i left office at 4... when its suppose to be 630... but of cuz i end up home later cos i went for dinner with them and some drinks.. i guess they are right.. they are easier to talk to after work because they finally can leave the word money from their mouth... its feels quite good when the topic starts to revolve around you.. but then its always this time u realise that u only have 3 weeks left with them.. but nevertheless i want to go back to school... they say to jio me for bowling before i leave.. yay!!! but before that i think i will die with the work schedule they have for me... got to do a lil ot everyday to finish up the work...

wells.. that all for updates.. till something happening happen in my life.. i will be back with more details... hee..

2006-06-18T06:44:00.000-07:00

Today’s date is 11th June. Im writing this down in my laptop becos my house comp is down again. Yes! Again! Just got a few thots to pin down so henceforth this entry.

Yesterday was my dear meimei’s bdae. It was a nice and warm-hearted gathering as all 8 of us were seated down together once again in one table and gossiping away about other guests at the party. heee. Had a really good talk with oanne after the party as we headed home. I guess both of us were glad of this time where we could really catch up with each other and pay back for the time lost between us.

She told me that my closest friend have all asked her if I really enjoyed all that I was doing besides studying, whether I found everything I have done worth it of my time. At that instant moment, I admit I couldn’t find an answer.

Its been two very very long years. I would say probably the worst and best thing that has happened to me was to be involved in hall. Don’t be mistaken I m not regretting what I have done. I don’t usually do things that I regret but try to minimize the tradeoff between my choices.

I know I have lost many many things in the midst of gaining much experiences in doing what I have always wanted to do. However, I value the change in me that all these has brought for me. I once told peiwei: there will be this point of time where something happens to us and we all have just this one chance to change and nurture into someone that is better and a more worthy person on earth. I took 2 years but it doesn’t matter how long you take. What matters is making this time u take worth it. Its gonna go a long way in make life better in the future.

I guess these two years, I spent a lot of time with myself then with anybody else. A lot time thinking about what I really want in my life and what I really value in life. Thinking about what kind of person I want people to see me when I leave this earth. Thinking about how good a friend have I been, how filial or understanding as a sister and daughter. My dad once told me no matter how successful in work and in other responsibilities I have been, for this family I haven given enough yet. I reflect upon the priorities I set for myself and my expectations of the people around me.

Of course I haven found the exact answer but at least I know I m on the right track. I work hard at my studies, at all the things I do. Not for anyone else but myself. I realized that the only person who can make myself happy and sad are the exact person that is ME myself. I realized I spent all my past years blaming other people when things go wrong on my side, blaming my friends for not spending enough time with me. I did not see that most of the time, the only unhappy person was myself.

About one week ago, when we all got our results, James my new intern friend ask me: do u think u will do better if u were not in JCRC?. I stoned for a moment and said no. That night as I was talking to Sheila, she unknowingly praised me by saying that I should proud of my working perseverance. I guess I already did my best to minimize the try off like what I have said earlier on.

So I guess it’s probably the rightest decision for me to move back home from hall in my final year. Its time I do my best to make the friends around me happy. I guess I have been a good friend these days as I spend more time with my friends. Quality time I hope! I think my closest friends are more than happy to see my move home.

I watched the episode of kang xi lai le with tian2 niu1 as the guest. She said in the show: With my natural ability to make laughs with the people around me, I believed that I m sent by god to this earth with the mission of making the people around me happy.

She also said that behind the door when no one is around, she is more of a private person. However, the moment when she is with others she will do her best to make another person’s day happy.

I was very heartened to hear these words for her and pondered over whatever the other things she said in the show. I too, wanted to do the same. I want to use whatever I can to make someone else’s day happy. I want to make myself happy by making other people happy. since I sure am able to be quite a joker, its probably my mission as well. If not I will make my life principle then.

It sure was a very unforgettable 2 years and I have learnt a lot from other people mistakes and achievements and more importantly from the many wrong choices I have made. I told qiuyun, if someone were to ask me if staying in hall was good. I wouldn’t be able to answer it right away.

Actually I like the way my life is right now, spending the right amount of time with the loved ones around me who truly deserve my love and concern. My expectations over people around me have changed over time for better or for worse. I guess that’s probably the best way for things to work out. Im sure life will turn out for the better and I can be and will be a better person.

These days I have learnt not to whine about things I don’t have but be thankful that I have what I have. I only pray to want the things that I have if I cant have the things I want. Im not complaining becos I shouldn’t be.

Life is good because you are reading this. Muacks!

Week One of PA

2006-05-11T23:42:00.000-07:00

seems like i have been MIA-ing for these few days.. working shag lar.. although i only work in city area not like the other part of the island.. oops.. no offence.. but the mad rush is tired man...

if u dunno and u are reading this.. i m currently on attachment at OCBC center near raffles place.. where UOB plaza is.. opp of where the boat quay macs is... booohooo.. 45 more days to... and i call this counting down.. what the.. i wonder how IA pple survive...

but of cuz dun be mistaken.. actually in fact i m quite surprised that i dun dread gg to work.. i think i have successfully submitted myself to fate.. but come monday i alr warn my new intern frens that i so gonna suffer from monday blues.. guess at least i m doing something that i might be doing in the future because all the staff there are from NTU.. like they say they are my grand grand grand senior... everyone wears suit in there so i dun realli dare to dress down.. boohoo... this smu intern whose gonna be there longer than anyone of us told me that she got told off when she wore open toes to work one day.. so now she towers over me everyday with her killer heels..

but the thing about working in a big company is that.. no one bothers about you... i think up till now not many of them know my name correct... cynthia lar.. what lar.... worse still my dear shelia was telling me that someone called her cecelia.. realli end my day off well with that stupid joke of yours man.. so glad that i decided to call you last night to speak to you.. its feels so strange not to be right beside u on a normal weekday.. heh.. i hope your OT will stop.. drive us ard!!!!

other than that... i guess i will survive although i have been doing financial spreading with no one teaching.. and they dun bother that i dunno if i m doing it correctly... wells.. enjoy working life... gonna take it as a prelude to my life in years to come..

i m glad for the social butterfly within me.. i know practically none of the interns i m working with at OCBC.. hah.. bo bian i unlease myself and made some new frens.. so there u have it my new lunch kakis.. as for my collegues.. sad to say.. i dunno much of them.. so much for them asking to network in our days.. i think on my last day my supervisor will not know my name.. i dunno how will things go when my ntu tutor.. my favourite dr lee hon sing comes and want to talk to her.. i guess it will also be the first time i get to talk to her as well...

wells... thats about it for my thots on week one.. aint no complains cos i know i m not the worst out there.. i heard from my fren that another gal had to do street survey... and they call it professional attachment.. phew.. and when i went to the filling department.. my nice collegue lorraine, the only one who bothers when i stare into space and went to get work for me and taught me abt their system cos she din want me to do stuff for her blindly.. how nice... anw.. she say filling oso had interns... my god.. that moment i exclaimed very loudly that heng i nv got posted there.. that place sucks hell.. all the cupboards of shell.. that intern is so gonna look like the files after ten weeks with his (i pray its not a her) new grown muscles...

hang in there for those on attachment!!! i m stuck at home these days.. everyone seems to have progs.. boohoo.. date me out if u are free and is reading this... shit i sound desperate...

alrites i shall end this entry with something i found in the midst of my blog hopping...

Lesson One:

An eagle was sitting on a tree resting, doing nothing.
A small rabbit saw the eagle and asked him : Can I also sit like youand do nothing?

The eagle answered:Sure, why not.

So, the rabbit sat on the groundbelow the eagle and rested.
All of a sudden, a fox appeared, jumped on the rabbit and ate it.

Management Lesson:
To be sitting and doing nothing, you must be sitting very, very highup

Lesson Two:

A turkey was chatting with a bull. I would love to be able to get tothe top of that tree sighed the turkey. But I havent got the energy.

Well, why dont you nibble on some of my droppings?replied the bull. They are packed with nutrients.

The turkey pecked at a lump of dung, and found it actually gave him
enough strength to reach the lowest branch of the tree. The next day,after eating some more dung, he reached the second branch. Finally after a fourth night, the turkey was proudly perched at the topof the tree. He was promptly spotted by a farmer, who shot him out of
the tree.

Management Lesson:Bull shit might get you to the top, but it wont keep you there.

Lesson Three:

A little bird was flying south for the winter. It was so cold the bird froze and fell to the ground into a large field. While he was lying there, a cow came by and dropped some dung on him. As the frozen bird lay there in the pile of cow dung, he began to realize how warm he was. The dung was actually thawing him out! He laid there all warm and happy, and soon began to sing for joy.

A passing cat heard the bird singing and came to investigate. Following the sound, the cat discovered the bird under the pile of cow dung, and promptly dug him out and ate him.

Management Lesson:

(1) Not everyone who shits on you is your enemy.

(2) Not everyone who gets you out of shit is your friend.

(3) And when you are in deep shit, its best to keep your mouth shut!

take care folks!

ngiamy =P

falling in love...

2006-04-25T20:36:00.000-07:00

first of all!!! happie sweet 21st seekee!!!! and jingjing!!!! i hope for a smashing good time for you two...

whooo... guess what i m falling in love with... hah.. who am i falling in love with...

ITS MY FAMILY!!!!!

hah.. been at home for almost a week.. i only went out once on fri with the two lazy bum bum bankers who got tired after walking for erm 1 hr.. the furthest i went these was bishan park.. to jog.. i could do even the one single thing i hate most in my life when i m stuck at home... i read papers every morning.. every single page of it.. i even tell my mum whats on the news cos she has no time to read it on some days... i even tell them workers party is coming to amk... whoooo.. finally my parents can try voting.. hah.. siao.. i wonder if my ah ma needs to vote.. over 21 mah.. pre-65-er lei my grandma... hah..

anw.. nothing much just wanna share some funnie thots i had these days.. that day i acc my maid to the bakery at my house to buy waffles for my mum... see.. even a trip to the neighbourhood store is deemed fun.. anyway.. i realli had the urge to try to use the waffle machine.. then i told my maid:

me: wah.. i wish my parents open bakery.. then when i dun have to go school then i can come and make waffle and bake bread... cream the cake... not like now.. still acc u come buy thing.. so boring..

maid: wah dun want hor... later i day time need to bake cake make waffle then nite time go back and clean house.. i will become crazy...

my maid aint dumb huh...

ha.. these days i just love lazing ard at home oso.. contrary to what i have been complaining on top thou.. at least i can spent the whole morning talking to my mum.. although 1/3 will be hearing her suaning at me... keep asking me to go jogging and slim down if not she is not gg to pay my pa clothes for me... 1/3 will be complaining about my maid... 1/6 will revolve ard listening to her sell 4d stories abt the ah pek and ah um who buy 4d... i love my naggy mum..

u know... when i was younger... i always question my mum...

"how come u dun love me enuff? how come u keep suaning me?"

then she will bring out her ten year series of answers how much she loves me and what she did to show how much she lovees me... and then my dad will bring out his 20 years series answer... but i never attempted to look beyond the answers...

it was only when i grew up.. i realli knew what she meant by loving me... and the way she love me.. was much much much more better than what i wanted... she said she never praised me becos i could be sooo much more better than what i m now... becos she knew being complacent was one of my biggest flaw... but i always caught her praising me infront of others which brings a smile to my face... she love me by wanting to bring out the best in me... i used to complain why i din get all the things i wanted... she said that will teach me to value the things i have ard me and not take everything for granted... although most of the time.. the things i want will come to me eventually.. hiak.. but she just din want me to get it so easily...

the plans she made out for me.. including the money she is saving for me to go for laser eye operation... and everything she has done for this family... i know i have one of the best mum in this world.. and i suppose its so for every mum... no wonder the song is shi shang zhi you ma ma hao...

i love my mummy!!!!!!

my 2nd thank you entry

2006-04-19T03:48:00.000-07:00

its been a few days since the release of myself from the exams craze.. although its only 2 papers.. but then it was back to back and i cant imagine myself reading through 450 pages of rm in one day.. on single day... although its over.. but i dun realli feel too good about it.. i din think i did well enough but wells.. its over and i sure m glad...

anyway this is not the purpose of this entry.. hah... yest officially marks the entry of me entering into my final year of study in ntu... boy this is fast man... i felt as if i just entered uni last week and yest i finish my last paper for year 2.. i bet next year is gonna be as fast if not faster..

in other words this is a thank you speech... to all whom have made this journey more fulfilling then it intended to be... that means if u are reading this.. u probably defintely have made life easier in one way or another and i thank you for it...

this year has been a heaven and hell journey... and a speed ride... i have seen so much for myself about the things around me.. and the people ard me.. and of cuz i have learn alot about myself and the change within me...

hah.. i think i can name this year as the year with the least amount of sleep for me... i seldom sleep more than 7 hours each day and plus the fact that i dun like to nap unless my eyes closes themselves... and occasionally sleep more in the weekends when i have nothing on my list for sunday...

and 05/06 is the year.. hah i married myself to hall3 man.. hah.. taking up jcrc portfolio and being a social sectretary was probably something i have always wanted to do.. of course i know what i have done might not be the best.. but as far as i m concerned its already my best... and till this day i have no regrets spending nites and nites at meeting... answering ah tiong's calls on sunday morning asking about hall stuff and its not once but twice... i remember it was xmas eve when this ah tiong called me 9am morning to ask about stuff.. when i was still in my dreams...

cheerleading.. xmas party.. hall dinner... i could still vividly remember all the planning process and how we scratch our head to come up with ideas.. i remember how i flunk my first event where even venue turned out to be a problem for me.. i couldnt have done without the help of many many pple.. u know who u are... A BIG THANK YOU... this year in hall has been a good one.. alot of ups and downs but that what makes it memorable...

well about sch... this banker year has been hell for me... really very tough lei... from loving financial management to hating bnf mods that i take... thats a hell of a difference... i thot my love for fm could last me thru my specialisation but i realli dun like what i m studying... but dun be mistaken.. i nv regret my choice because if i were to choose again... i will still choose to study banking and finance.. out of my love for maths and numbers and probably the kick of always getting the right answer from my financial calculator... but i nv expect it to turn out like that.. just got myself to blame for being so naive... wells i just got to bite on my lips to last thru another year and i hope i can find a decent job not in the bank though... maybe god has planned out something more wonderful for me since the sch convienently dropped me into the HR dept for my attachment... like i say i m a well diversified student.. i m majoring in bnf, doing a hr attachment and lastly working on a marketing final year project... but the good thing that turn out all was i have 2/3 of power puff gals with me.. tgt with moyjo jojo aka victor and professor alan to go thru this shit tgt...

wells.. enough of my ah story.. this year has been an eventful and fulfilling one and i m glad i survived it... so the rest of this entry will go towards thanking some special people who have made this journey much smoothing than it would be...

roomie: hah.. i miss u.. i realise i love being your roomie than living beside u.. i miss being able to talk to u just before i have my beauty sleep... i miss snapping at you when u tell me what u want to eat for dinner just after lunch... hah... and laughing at your hair... i thot the distance sort of made us drift a lil apart and with our busy schedules.. thanks for the encouragement for everything in my life... and ur postcard when exams are here and nv forgetting the existence of me in this world.. all rights this is a lil kua zhang... i hope we can have all the time in the world to catch up when ur exams end which is like 2 weeks from now.. heee.. thanks for not giving up on all of us and me when things got tough and gg... i still love u for who u truly are!!!! u are sucha a babe!!!! muacks!!!!!

jermaine: i know i nv told u how much i enjoyed talking you when we reach somewhat earlier during our outings.. but i realli do.. i do realise we could talk so much more these days and pls let it continue... i very much wanna share my life with u my dear... thanks for ur downpour of concerns whenever u see sth wrong with my nick and ur never-fail-to-encourage-me words... this long time fren of mine.. i m glad things came this far to what it is today.. the longest fren i have even known.. i mean longest time.. oops... thanks for still being ard in this drowning ship... lets keep it going!!!!

eileen: i love buying chicken chop for you sia... continue being yourself my dear.. and thanks for being there for pavillion gang... live life happie k!!!!!!

pavillion gang: thanks for still sticking ard.. u guys make me complete...=)

oanne: i just wanna say "when can we go out?????" i think i miss you too much this sem to even dare say the words that i miss you and risked being killed by the rest... hah.. although u say i bring u up from your downs.. u do the same to me too... thanks for all the "up-bringing" and for still being there even though all of us hate u... we hate to love u lar... and the rest of the gals.. lets go boat boat after ur exams k.. quick!!!! oops...

meimei: jia you k!!!! ur end is near... jia you!!!! i miss you too... thanks for always willing to entertain me on msn and ngiamying ngiaming me... hah... i alway miss the chance to talk to you when we see each other outside class.... right person wrong timing.. hah.. thanks for the concern over the past yearss... hah.. love you!!!!

S5a gossip gang: go out lei.. i miss crapping with you gals.. lets suan oanne more!!!! she is missing it... ahahahhh...

shelia and hanhan: blossom and buttercup... what would i do without you all in bnf...? the super slackers in bnf... hah.. wah lau.. cfm is us lar plus the 2 guys... everyday complain abt my "best fren" and other kiasu sais... thanks for being there everyday and i mean everyday since we nv fail to kana 5 day week this two sems... i thank god for the chance to get to know the 2 of you all better as we became battlemates in this rat race.. esp you lia my best bang... bad days are gone i hope.. or at least let it get better... go go go gals!

sheila tan: i dunno why but i love talking to you when i m down.. which most probably you are at your downtimes too. suay lor.. hah... kidding lar... thanks gal for saying the right words when i m feeling down.. like what lia said.. u nv fail to hit the bull's eyes with ur words.. like i say you worthy of my abuse... i will make u remain that way.. hah... i like talking to you sane-ly more than to abuse u when we are tgt... bao zai yi ku... thanks gal for just being who you are..

dwarfs: what can i say, you guys nv fail to make me smile. keep it that way!

huijun: hey babe.. hah.. distance brought us alot more closer this year. and thanks for giving me lotsa of advice thru out my term and nv failling to encourage me... thanks for sharing your life with me and listen to my endless complains abt work.. i still have so much to learn from you although u are a lao char bor and i m a happening youth... keep the flow going alrites? thanks for the concern especially these few months and care abt whether i m ok or not... it realli touched me alot... work hard for this exams k.. its your last hurdle as a student... u know you can do it ok??? jia you!!!

huijing, deniece and winnie: hah.. chiobu sport sec, mi mi yan a. sport sec and xiao bu dian fin sec.. you guys are probably the best thing that happened in 23rd.. thanks for the never ending support for everything i do and everything i want to do.. and maybe even thinking of joining cheerleading to ease my burden.. thanks gals.. i miss those ktv and supper-ing lei... the one thing that realli touched me was when u all came down to acc me to wait for the lorrie to return the tables... ok laugh at how i m easily touched but thanks my dear... thanks gals.. for everything.. from laughing with me.. laughing at me.. and letting me laugh at you all... muahaha... thanks huijing for listening to my crap.. and crapping with me... thanks deniece for ur ever support for my singing when the whole world know i went out of tune.. and winnie for ur monetary support.. hah.. no lar... i realli enjoyed working with you!!!! continue to become even funnier okays... if there is the first thing i will miss being in 23rd... it would be sticking ard with you all...

my social butterflies: although probably none of you will be seeing this.. i just wanna shout a big thank you here... everything in our social year was done with great efforts by all of you.. from our first event "nitemare b4 xmas" where we went ard like ghost... which i m soo happie to see none of you complain although i know the costumes were very very hot... it realli made me happie.. i m not bian tai.. i m just happie that you all are proud of your own efforts... all the way to hall dinner handling soo much balloons and that mega structure... especially i wanna thank my best subcom head.. i only have one anw.. hah.. thanks gal for everything u did and taking over when i m not ard.. huiyu and yanqi for your very expensive smses to ask them to come for meeting... others like yippi.. ur designs rocks lar... i love everyone of them!!!! and many others.. i cant thank you all enuff.. so pls still be ard for friendship nite.. haha... one more event to go... thanks guys... the best subcom one can have... i hope you guys had lotsa fun in here as well...

the cheerleading team: you are all the best lar.. what can i say... the group that never gave up despite how much difficulty we have in putting this team tgt... we are the best and we know it alrites... if u still wan to join cheerleading.. let nth stop you ok! haha... thanks a million for the effort put in.. let it be in your memories for as long as they can be...

shufen: i cant thank you enough for the help u have render me for cheerleading... i think thats probably one of your worst commitment... hah.. thanks gal.. i guess cheerleading brought us much closer this year too and i m glad for the chance to know you better as a partner and as a fren... thanks for always dropping by for a chat when you come to the pantry... i realli enjoy talking you... thanks gal!!!! enjoy ur trip!!!!!

luanshuang: hah.. my most hated and loved freshie... and as i always say my best subcom head... i think u are another i realli pulled into the shit i was in tgt.. thanks for listening to my ideas when i have one and giving me your ideas... and entertaining me via msn.. i forgot how i started talking to you on msn oso.. hah fatal error.. deadly... but nevertheless.. thanks for lending a listening ear whenever i need one and the extra effort in acc me whenever i need to buy stuff for our events... thanks gal.. for helping in every bit of life... muacks!

yeps.. the list is never ending and in case u din know this entry took me two days.. hah.. my brain malfunctions these days i need a lil longer to sort out what i realli wan to type.. but of cuz i cant never finish thanking the people i want to... but u know who u are and i m grateful to you...

i guess the lesson i realli learnt this year was how to be thankful for the people and things ard me... which explains the long long list.. i realise how much i love to hear thank you from people that i make it a pt to say it to the pple ard me all the time.. i guess this year.. as i spent more time alone.. i realli learnt to hear from myself... and know what the hell was realli wrong with me with all the mood swings i suffer...

well i guess i have sort of gotten out of that sad state of mine and move on.. like i told someone i forgot who.. the only person who can make me happie and sad is the same person and thats is ME! so therefore its not the responsibility of anyone even my dearie close fren to come and cheer me up... becos i was the only who was making myself unhappie with the grudges i bear and the unhappiness i chose to carry with me in life... only i can make myself happie.. and i m still currently learning to do that.. and i m doing it pretty well i guess.. learning to take everything i have as extra goodies god gave me in life... and learn not to expect too much.. easier said than done but gimme some time...

wells with that i m goona end this entry cos i m getting a lil giddy with all the typing.. i m not kidding my head is a lil heavy.. but with all that being said... i wanna thank everyone for sticking ard and making my life better than it should be... enjoy your live happily everyone and love me more!!!!!

love,

ngiamy =)

ps: how is this man.. a longest entry once and for all... wahaha...

finally a new post.. in 15 days

2006-04-18T23:41:00.000-07:00

hah.. the last i had was 6th april... so long ago.. i wanted to type out my thank you speech for this sem.. but still have to help my bro with work so maybe tonite or tmr lar... good stuff are worth waiting... heee...

anyway.. one boring afternoon while i was studying... i suddenly thot of 101 silly things we did as little gals:

1) we die oso dun wan to go toilet alone

2) we spent alot of time talking about last nite ch 8 tv programme when now everyone is watching scv... or maybe everyone doesnt include me... heh...

3) we like to buy new water bottle those that u press the button the cover will shoot up... either that or we like to use fork or wat to poke the plastic cover of our cheap 40cent water bottle so that we can shoot pple with it.. then after that the craze was over the suck suck water bottle..

4) we love to haolian our coloured staple BULLETS and purposely staple everything we have...

5) we love to carry our bags as low as possible even though its puts us at the risk of falling backward... i think the popular brand was bodypac then..

6) we used to think that the 10 cents bing bang was the most popular after sch snacks and fight over which colour we want..

7) we got crazy over playing on staircase.... "father mother brother sister baby home"... if u dunno what i m saying.. maybe only amk kids play that lar...

hah... run out of ideas le... will be back...

jia you everyone,

ngiamy =p

2006-04-06T05:04:00.000-07:00

dear diary,

nothing much for this post.. just finally felt sian about looking at the same entry everything i go to my page to see my tag... its 8pm now and i just reach hall at 730pm after doing my regression project.. today it finally took a toll on me... and sorries to lihan and shelia for taking my nonsense at the lab just now.. reali cannot take it already then... this week has been hell for the 3 of us.. yest i only left lab at 845pm after finishing my equity project.. this is suppose to be exam study week.. and i spent more time in lab then on my books.. i spent more time walking to the canteen to get coffee to wake myself up. on monday and tuesday we also left at ard 6 plus seven and to think the 3 of us din even have any proper lunch for this 4 days... not that other pple arent gg thru this but.. it just sucks to be gg thru it now at this pt of time when the whole world is preparing for exams..

today we finally handed in our monster project... and i dun feel anything for it seriously.. i dun even know what to feel for it... all i can say its realli a battle of life and death we have been thru for this.. and i still vividlly remember once.. when i nearly cried to myself when i simply couldnt see us finishing this.. call me a wimp.. gg thru it yourself and u know what i mean...

and for tmr presentation.. i dun realli care abt it.. i realli wanna get it done and join the gals at the library to study before heading home to my one and only comfort zone... it sucks being in hall when u have to go thru the above in sch already.. i miss even my ah ma nagging... and the only event that will rock this week of mine is qing ming jie.. how life can get till such stage huh u ask... i dunno...

and thanks huijun for your encouraging goodie bag.. heh...

shelia and lihan for bearing my nonsense, lame jokes and my ugly face =P

Dwarfs, for making me laugh everytime we are tgt..

and lastly my dearest roomie for the exam good luck card.. i miss being my roomie's roomie too..

life will be good,

ngiamy =)

2006-03-18T10:07:00.002-08:00

just before movie... posing with popcorn....

after winning for 3 rounds in arcade.. man.. i m unbeatable!!!!

at bk for dinner.. my first meal for the day.. =(

nothing more to eat le.. 3.95 meal for the whole day.. call me a pig...

dunno why my roomie still can laugh with fingers in her nose...

the director and her sense of art with a straw in between us...

still hungry... grrrrr

after the first meal of the day...

yay!!!!!!!!!! happie roomie and ME!!!!!!!!!!

2006-03-18T09:41:00.000-08:00

today is sat weekend and i m down with a headache.. what a way to end my week.. but nevertheless.. i had alot of fun last nite... with my stupid gals... laugh until tears come out.. i felt as in i was on holiday.. after so much has happen.. its been so long since we last went out... and it realli made me forget the stress at sch and the sian-ness within me.. thanks again gals... check the fotos below..

i cried again at movie "my girl and i".. stupid roomie stop laughing at my swollen eyes... touching mah.. its a must catch weekday show though.. cos only 1.5 hours.. for those who wanna cry.. this is a must watch!

yeaps.. that pretty end of my week well.. had hall dinner event.. my last event for this acad year.. everything that could have gone wrong went wrong.. even screeen oso can go missing.. i m just glad that our balloon megastructure din fall or that the air con din crush someone to death.. i realli did my best for this event.. from award to mapping out the whole event.. just too bad that technology failed.. and accordiing to my dear sunshine.. i look so sad thru out the nite.. i hope no one has noticed it...

other than that.. nth interesting so far... sch has been tough.. as usual here at nbs (nothing but shit)... just hope to end all the proj soon.. and end exams and end pa... and... seems like there is nothing to look forward to anyway...

thanks to all who have asked if i was ok... yeaps getting on fine i guess.. *screaming i will survive now*... thanks to the 3 arcade kakis last nite for making this week end with a bang.. thanks to drawfs and to drawfs.. i realli miss them.. i even miss being suan-ed by sheila.. pls take good care of yourselves too... we shall go for our well deserved break soon... thanks to my satatllite fren huijun if u are reading this.. to take time off to hear my complain in midst of ur never-ending stuff to do.. and jcrc stupid kahkis for the late nite supper and drive ard ntu aimlessly.. and hearing my nv ending complains.. listen to my awful singing in the com hall hah!.. and everyone else.. oh and my dear sunshine junior who nv fails to shine my day... thanks.. i realli appreciate it... continue shining!!!!

hang in there guys.. the bad days will soon come to an end...

love,

ngiamy, keep on smiling just like me!

sunshine

2006-03-07T03:09:00.000-08:00

even the sunshine doesnt make me happie when the skies are grey...

these few days has been ok.. still breathing.. i dunno why i just cant seem to do anything with zest.. nothing makes me happie these days.. not even watching wo cai.. not even seeing my drawfs.. not even seeing my roomie's hair messy... heh.. i wonder what exactly issit that i want...

for now.. i cant wait to get hm.. and erm listen to my maid's jokes.. dun wanna come back to my full of ants hostel room.. i wish exams are tmr.. i dun care even if i dun do well... i just want a good break...

tmr is 214 graded presentation.. think i m gonna like spend the next few hours going thru the presentation over and over again.. until i dream of it tonite...

i have made a decision.. i hope i stick by it... i shld...

ngiamy =(

ps: this is a sad entry.. i just needa rant... tmr will be better!

bleah

2006-03-01T02:32:00.000-08:00

haiz.. if only i can run as fast as my days goes by..

this is 1st march so i m making a brand new attempt at blogging again.. THIS IS A NEW ENTRY!!!! before u guys think i din update again... heh...

its gonna be hell for me pretty soon.. booohooo.. 5k report.. 214 presentation.. two 213 project.. one bloody hell 219 project.. and never fail to make me puke hair tutorials... hah.. zhe bai si liao lar... everything is starting to look like ants to me...

nth much to update these days... the most happening thing that happen was erm.. yumei 21st bdae bah.. where we meet elmo.. the dog many of us shared to buy for her...!!!! quite cute but i still dun dare to hug.. scare make drop...

ok got to start preparing for tmr discussion.. if there is anything INTERESTING in my life.. i will be back to blog.. hehe...

just a normal entry

2006-02-22T03:19:00.000-08:00

dear diary,

i m waiting to go for video shooting for weiliang... stoning in room now.. shld have stop for dinner first b4 coming back... i just spent my day mugging away at je library with lia, la and peiwei.. din study much but at least i managed 1.5 lec and one horrendous tutorial... and disturbing shelia.. and irritating sheila..

damn tired now.. but i got to drag myself to start law assignment later.. when will all this end..???

i receive a missed call while getting my coffee just now.. i wonder if its from MAS.. but i doubt so since they nv call back again... and i have sort of resigned to fate that they dun wan me already... argh... actually i m realli damn sad over this thing... the fact that i wasted one option on rbs... and now mas is like that... maybe i m not good enuff after all... not even worth considering...

i dunno what can be explained from my sian-ness after coming back to hall.. maybe i m starting to hate this life of mine... maybe even i dun wan to be myself...

happie to be alive,

ngiamy

2006-02-09T02:18:00.000-08:00

foto time!!!!

they carried a giant... whoooo

i realli love my cheerleaders.... they make me smile... =)

my hunks!!!! heee

my dearest fun loving social butterflies.... acting funnie again...

hah.. for once.. so prim and proper.. heh....

wrong day wrong mood

2006-02-09T01:15:00.000-08:00

first, my potential fyp tutor pissed me off, leaving us in shit. and make me realise the floor is more interesting than my face.

two, bf 219 aka you take you die is still getting no where. to think i spent 6 hours reading some shit...

three, nothing is gg rite

got to get myself a helmet in case the fan in my room drops on my bloody head...

feeling lousy...

2006-02-06T02:57:00.000-08:00

a quick post before i start with my work...

just got back from lihan and pee wee hse for some new year bai nian-ing... lihan ur mum curry chicken rocks and.. peewee.. ur niece is sooo cute.. aspiring hairstylist... hah... thanks gals for having us over at your place.. we had fun.. sleeping on sofa... heh...

anyway.. today has got to be the worst academic day of my life... at class today the tutor wanted the 3 of us to rewrite our assignment.. no big deal u might ask..but only the 3 of us had to do it.. how disgusting.. but thinking back.. i realli din put in alot of effort.. serve myself right... but i will bounce back.. no worries... grade A.. here i come... we belong tgt... shall forget abt it soon and do a rewrite for my tutor.. whom is speaking of which getting on my nerves lately... cant stand her.. in fact i cant stand any tutor lately.. except my law tutor.. whom i have only seen once the whole of this sem... hah.. tmr is law lesson again!!! yay!!!! 4.5 hours of non stop law action... more effective than sleeping pills...

btw, i just made a pact with shelia to go study at je library during one week break.. 5 days a week.. dun say we are mad.. we are lagging this much... somebody save us!!!!! i m determined to get my As back... in no time... time to get a galilee card...

of course before working hard.. i have to enjoy first.. hah.. looking forward to drawfs bai nian trip this sat... steamboat at lala's place.. then full week of hall activities.. bestie 21st bdae party (hopefully!) and JAC AND SARA singing competition!!!!!

i cant wait for all the fun to come,

ngiamy =)

i m yellow!!!!

2006-02-04T07:35:00.000-08:00

Ngiam, your true color is Yellow!

You're yellow, the color of joy and energy — two things you definitely bring to everyone around you. It's hard for anyone to be sad or lonely in your presence; your sunny disposition and cheery outlook just won't allow it. The warmth of your personality shines through in the kindness you show friends and family (and strangers, too). Always ready with a lighthearted joke or heartfelt compliment, you know how to make people feel good about themselves, so they can't get enough of you. Yellow is a warm and inviting color for a warm and inviting person — you!
hah!!! quite true hor... =)

love,
ngiamy =)

ahhhhhh

2006-02-01T02:10:00.000-08:00

555pm: i open my rm book and seriously intend to study for the quiz on monday.

556pm: close book and started blogging.. heh...

today is the 2nd time in sem 2 that i sat down and do tut.. hah.. oh well... very hardworking liao lor.. the rest of the mod no tutorial mah.. heh.. excuses... but i will study for my rm test tonite... promise...

anyway, chinese new year was kinda boring. as usual visit and eat visit and eat... smile and more entertaining... at least i get to pinch my cute nephew.. heee... anyway.. i hope that steamboat at hm will be kept in the cardboard for at least half a year.. anymore boat... i will drown in those pots...

hah.. went to chinatown twice this year.. esp the one with my parents... dun even have to walk... just stand there protect ur assets and be pushed by the human wave... just find the stall holders there damn funnie... award winning sales line:

1) 来啊来啊。。老板不在乱乱卖

2）来啊！老板看这边不要看中间

and i forgot already...

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anyway, as i was having lunch with my drawfs... we were discussing the bf 219 virus... hah.. the lecturer that can send all 3 of us to sleep in secs... and me falling off my chair when i bang into the sliding table... anyway.. the evaluation we always do at the end of the sem rite... shld be like that lar...

how effective is the tutor??

1) yawning
2) slightly sleepy eyes
3) doze off
4) deep sleep
5) coma

happie new year everyone!!!!! muacks!!!!!

smiling,

ngiamy=)

hip hip hurray!!!!!!!!!!

2006-01-17T18:02:00.000-08:00

dear diary,

its wednesday i m feeling real happie now.. my baby will be born today... nah.. i mean my cheerleaders!!!!! this is the day i guess all of us have been waiting for... last nite we finally managed to finish up everything more than once.. when the final pyramid was up nothing can describe how happie all of us were... at that moment everyones heart was tgt wanting to do it well... it really touched me... everything paid off and i m sooo proud of them... i believe all our efforts put in over the past 2 mths.. tonite is the nite where we will be rewarded duly... if there is anyone we wanna beat... its ourselves... and i m sure all of us will outwin ourselves... nothing's gonna stop us now!!!!!!!!!

now that its coming to an end... a large part of me actually yearns to do this over again.. its been hard and long journey.. from forming the team.. begging pple to join... persuading pple to stay.. promoting cheerleading.. sheding sweat and tears of fustration over how do we actually make it.. spending nites doing the music and thinking of who goes where in the routine... now that all this is gg to end... wo she bu de!!!!!!!! but its been real fun working with everyone.. and of cuz my partner shufen... we rocks manz!!!!! i hope all of us will meet in the market often.. sell vegetable sell pork sell coffee... let the spirit never end manz... lets make a difference...!!!!

i realli will miss the trainings... 3 times a week 5-6 hours per session.. where else can i find such committed cheerleaders... and this week been hell for them... training everyday for 6-7 hours... i m sooo proud of you guys!!!! just looking at the video will make me smile... i m looking fwd to the good show later...

happy sha la la,
ngiamy =)

argh

2006-01-11T00:21:00.000-08:00

dear diary,

i dunno how to describe how i feel now.. the whole day my mind has been on nothing except ho opening.. all the duties given to me and of cuz my cheerleaders... i m glad that i might have a chance to use the gym which comes with mirror... after asking and pleading for the com hall... i wish i could stop the time from passing by... jia you jia you jia you.. if there is anything i can do.. lemme know.. we still have chance.. dun give up now... just one more week.. 7 more days... show them how we want to do this well.. we have come so far to where we are now.. and this is defintely not all we are capable of.. we can do much much more.. this will not be the end of hall 3!!!!

i wanna say sorrie to drawfs... i realli din expect myself not to be able to come on time for 21st.. i think i might be able to make it if my frenz rom ends early.. i m reali sorrie..

nothing is gg rite.... fuck!

puiz,
ngiamy

haiz

2006-01-10T12:15:00.000-08:00

first nite in my new room.. feels realli funnie but glad that we are all safely settled down here...

its just 7 more days to go.. and i m realli scare.. and i guess so is fen... but just what more can we do... keeping my fingers crossed now.. jia you everyone!!!!! there is nothing we cant achieve...

i guess my dad is rite.. i try to put everything on my shoulder which by the way grew smaller over the past 6 mths... and i dun even admit when i cant breathe... when everything looks okay.. i guess thats when i m gg to break down soon.. but i believe i can and i will make it rite... someday at least...

nothing is looking good now.

no one to turn too,
ngiamy =(

hah

2006-01-06T00:30:00.000-08:00

hah.. i have 10 mins to go before i head off to support my hall track heats to see my two dearest fren run for their life... hah... so i decided to blog.. i m feelin realli good now.. dunno why although i felt realli lousy today at class due to lack of sleep.. i slept at 330 and woke up at 8...

i guess its becos i just had lunch with my two dearest bestie in life.. hah!!! although it was only at cant b.. so shanru pls come and find us more... WITH A CAR!!!! hah.. kidding... i m sure we will meet up more.. and lin shanru although u still firmly believe i pass my suay to you.. i was happie to acc u to wait for bus and talk cok for a while more and laugh at pple's lao pok car...

and yeaps i just finish my presentation stuff.. ok almost complete... and yesh i can then head off to a smashing weekend at oanne's 21st bdae party and i can see my jc kakissss.. yesh yesh yesh!!!! woah... overnite stay there too... i hope i can to rest my mouth enuff from laughing... hah...

alrites.. got to go... muacks muacks muacks to all reading this entry... missing you pple!!!!

in-love-with-mickey,
ngiamy =)

2006-01-02T10:09:00.000-08:00

okok this is way overdue but here are my msia fotos... from nite time to day time order... hah..

yea man.. it was this cold up there in genting...

without sheila and jac ard.. we quickly took a foto.. haha...

family foto one before the cheapo movie which i fell asleep thru out...

human chicken little... hah..

its raining dey.. halleluya its raining dey.. halleluya...

blossoms and bubbles...

finally in hotel room...

in the cable car.. hanging for life...

in cable car....

almost reaching gentin.. hang in there....

day one nite one...

new year new start

2006-01-02T01:01:00.000-08:00

dear diary,

actually the reason for this post is becos i m too lazy to cont doing my ab214 assignment.. hah.. waiting for peewee to be back to give my thr format before i complete the final product...

been busy putting up pictures these days... well i spent the first few moments with my bowling gang at erm city hall, boay quay, clark quay and erm serangoon... hah.. we din do anything much but i was happie enuff to spent the day with them.. blessed enuff... and thereafter i spent my days at hm.. its been a long time since i spent more than 48 hours at hm... went shopping with mum at nite at J8 (whisper~) hah.. brought nth cos no huge discount in sight.. hah..

hmm.. just some thot.. i used to think i was willing to do anything to make the pple ard me happie.. but then i realised recently.. that it din quite make me happie.. is it my problem.. or wat.. i dunno... was it suppose to make me happie or the pple ard me happie.. which comes first... which doesnt come...

i sat down to think... what exactly will make me happie... to realise that i dun even know it myself... a boyfren? better results? more frens?? grow slimmer??? hah.. i dun even know it myself... but i guess i will just be a better me... so that ONE DAY i will know what i want in the rat race i chose to enter...

dun worry i m not sad or anything.. cos i think its wasting time to be sad cos no one can help me... so yeapsssss this new year i will go all out to seek for what will make me happie... and of coz i do hope for sth in return for my efforts... well well...

ps: actually i dunno what i m typing oso... but just not feeling too good now...

new week ahead.. brand new start... wish me luck...

who will understand me,
ngiamy =/